Well, today was a really weird day or rather weird week maybe becoz i hadn have enough sleep.... I've been really absolutely busy tis whole week... It was my cuz's wedding and since I was the usher n cuz I had to help out in the preparation. Tiring... But still wasn happy.Maybe becoz i hoped or wished to be a bridesmaid since I was little. Maybe it's becoz I hoped to do sumthing special like a special music or play the piano. But well wat's done is done. I mean God does have plan for our everyday life's right??
I've been to driving lessons the whole week. But then quite lazy and time consuming... I'm so darn tired.Can't even find time to practice my music or do some revising.... I hate using manual cars.U have to keep ur mind running all the time.Thinking of when to change the gear, foot controlling for the paddle, mirror,etc.... Man, i just can't wait to get my license so at least I'll feel more free and not retarded.
Speaking about music, I hardly have the time to practice them. I was thinking about my future.I wanna do music.I really do but dad doesn wan me to do it...He never does agree with me all the time... Tat's why I'm so blur bout my life.I mean i don't even get the attention i sud have from them. I always have been doing everything by myself. But then my siblings esp my bro after me keeps getting in my way. Using all my projects, art, and learning ways they end up doin better then me and get high position in class. Lowell(my bro) just receive his exam results today(PMR). He nearly had straight A's compared from me. I mean he has been using all the study technique and saying tat he's smarter then I and tat I've never did help him. He's been talking big ever since.It really hurts me coz I just wan sum1's support in wateva I do. But anyways,..... my life is like tat and it has always been....