Vesper

Well then,... was in charge of last nights vesper...Was kinda in a mess actually...Most of the stuff was actually done last min.Even my little talk.... Slides were done by Jason and Clin while testimony by Pastor Francis.Song sevice and special music done by Elsie and lyn...i did quite alot of talkin which was quite shocking even for myself.Elvina did the back part of the programme.... Our topic was GOD WITH US. The slides were on happy moments and sad moments which were both on disasters and the youth n things like tat.... I actually wrote my little speech down an hour before vesper...Was kinda freaky considering it was like totally silence...There was no noise to be heard.Was kinda nervous and scared not forgetting nearly stoning,but by the grace of God it actually went quite smoothly in the end...Really can't imagine the situation....After that many of the adults actually congratulate me or rather say i did well...Or it could be just for the sake of saying to me to make me feel better...I actually had a feeling tat was it.Hmm... I guess i'll nvr actually knoe...I wonder how many of the youth actually listen to me tat night...Figuring out normally they would be talking or doing somethings else...hmmm...(wonder).
Vesper normally had around 10 ppl attending it but last night was like 3-4 times the normal attendance.Maybe it's coz they tot there was a special speaker tat night,maybe they wanted to c wat the youth wud b doin,maybe they wanted to see wat I'll be doin,maybe just supporting...I really have no idea....Well,at least there were quite a no of ppl there though the frens i invited din actually turn up.I suppose i'll share wat i wrote then we'll let u judge on it shall we...Those who missed fri vesper get the chance knowing wat actually happened.It really was a last min thing.But i'm glad it's over..I'm nvr going to do tat again....
Here it is....

Good evening and a happy sabbath to all...(no response)....ok...before we start tonights vesper i wud like everyone to get off their seats and wish everyone a happy sabbath..(stillness...no1 moved).....As i said...errr....lets get up....(only a handful of ppl moved off their seats)....*pause*
Well thenit's really great to see so many faces tonight....Lets get on with our programme....Well, many things has been happening in this world of ours....Flood,earth quake....*pause*...errr.....,plane crashes,diseases and most recently the tsunami....Some may say it's signs of the end of the world, others say it's Jesus 2nd coming which is coming real soon and others may just say "It just happens,...so wat..."..*pause*....so wat do u think about all these happenings?..... *pause*
All of these tragedy brings sadness to many ppl,taken lifes of many souls, crumble ppl's dreams.If there WERE a God,y make us suffer so much? Some may say "there's no point working, or studying, or buying land or even working hard for something.After all it IS almost the end of the world.Right?There's no point working soo hard wenin the end ur going to die or suffer anyway." So wen is our world ending?Soon? How soon is tat? Lets turn to Luke 21:25-26....(reads)
All these signs.All which r happening around us. MOre and more ppl are getting scared and start taking up a religion.Is this the way for us to be safe and enter the kingdom of God?By just embracing a religion and believing?
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Christians maybe strong in faith and active in church.This is until something tragic happens then they would start back sliding and soon leave the church.Where is the faith?...*pause*....Where is God?How strong are our beliefs in him?How strong are our faith in him?In Proverbs3:5-6 it says...(reads out)
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When tragedy strikes,we question God and get mad with him or we seek him and plead for help but on the other hand,wen we r happy and safe,we put God aside and forget him....
errmmm....well, with all tat the best we could do is just look forward into the future and not holding on to our pass.But don't worry too much about tmr but let tmr worry about itself.The most we could do wen we r sad is to seek God.Talk to him about our problems or our daily activities the way we talk to a fren.I remember during the time i was in kl,considerin student life could be very stressful.Anyways,during my sad moments i had nobody around.My frens were either busy or they just wasn't there...At tat moment the only person i could seek was God....It really helps so we could try it(didn't knoe where tat sentance came frm)....
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errrmmm.....There was this other moments when i was really in a horrible state esp wif studies and things like tat.There were time wen i just didn't feel like going to church or having anything to do wif God.Everytime i think of tat a church member would call me up to be the pianist for the next day.So tat gave me an excuse of goin to church all the time....*pause*....church members prayed,frens were supportive but i still felt horrible.Nothing worked....This went on until 1 sabbath without knowing,there was this Pastor frm the US who was just visiting there...He was doing a sermon...In his sermon,he said "Don't tell God how big ur problems are but rather tell ur problems how BIG our God is"..(laughs a lil)... Well tat really caught me thinking....and i suppose after tat i was ok...I mean,tat really moved me.
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Blaming and questioning God is wat most of us do at times but we should keep the faith and keep believing in God.... In Matt 24:42&44)....(reads)
We should continue to work our very best in our everyday work for we don't know wen Jesus 2nd coming would be. So be prepared and share the joy and happinest we have wif God to frens and work mates or anyone around you.
Now let us take a look at the relection of the year 2004 1 last time and...errmmm.....forget about it looking forward to the happenings tmr...
Thank you.
(walks off)...(lights off).....(slides start)....

Well,.....that was it....rather scary...The positive sight of my speech was being said right on the spot so it's kinda messy....Should have said a few more things but didn't think of it at tat time.Only said wat was on my mind at tat very moment... lol... well then,.....Last night was pretty scary considerin i'm a kinda person tats actually quite timid and normally get stage fright esp wen i'm doin something just by myself....
A few members said next step i should take up pastoring and preaching...FAT CHANCE... I'll nvr do tat.....Others says i speeck better then my dad...lol.... tat maybe i can agree but others i'm not so sure about tat...Don't really knoe whether anyone is actually saying the truth considering i nvr got any feedback frm the youth themselves....So I'm really not sure about tat....