1st piano exam

yeaterday Was terrible.... maybe not that bad if you think more about it. I'm not too happy with my performance so feeling crap about it.
Had to wait till 4pm and the wait is the one that kills me not the exam. I was feeling pretty prepared but the more I spoke to friends(majority stuffed up) and waited around uni the more tense I felt. So me and friend went to the gardens near uni to chill till it was our turn.
At the exam, one of the candidates didn't turn up so we all had to go in early. When I went in, my shoes fell apart. The bead that holds the shoe sorta came out. I was in shock but went calmly. Gave the examiners my programme and bend down to try fix my shoe but left hand was at that time trembling pretty badly.
"Lorraine, are you ok?"
"Yea. I'm fixing my shoe"
"oh, I thought you decided to have a sleep or something..."
Finally fixed my shoe and went to the piano feeling kinda relaxed yet tense. My left hand was still trembling although right was perfectly alright. As some of you already know, my whole left arm started developing pain for 2 weeks. Pain got worse last week. Fingers started hurting as well last week but on mon till now I couldn't feel my fingers. I'm not paranoid..... I tried to calm myself down but my stupid left hand was trembling so bad.
Scales was pretty bad. to me. all the hard scales they gave like F# major arpeggio, Ab chromatic, Eb harmonic minor, G major octave was the scales I scored but the easy ones I f****d up. And to me it was bad.
My pieces wasn't that bad. Lots better then last week during lesson but I thought it could be perfect.
After i finished, examiners stopped me.
"We noticed you have a bandage on your left arm. What happened?"
"It's kapotano(however u spell that thing)"
"How long have you had it?"
"Had it 1st few months I was 1st year but was ok for the next 6 months. The pain returned 2 weeks ago."
"Haven't you seen a dr? You have to get it treated expecially when you're doing music"
"I saw a gp and dad says to come home then deal with it"
"Oh... So you're going home for the holidays.you should see a specialist about it."
"yea *smile* "
"anyways take care and have a nice day. thank you."
Damn.... Made me feel like I could have done so much better. Btw, I haven't practised as much as I did the whole year for the past 2 weeks but the pain still developed. Kinda scary considering I'm very dependent on my touch and hands.
*sigh*
Went out with my galfrens to chill. But ended up coming home with a headache.
hmmm....
And today? Last Piano lesson of the year. Fingers crossed....