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Life never seems to stop spinning at all directions does it?
Your heart and mind argues about everything that comes your way. pigs driving cars or flying the plane? what about donkeys running schools and monkeys taking over the world? lol....
How would you feel if ppl who were special to you forgot all about u? forgot about little details about you? forget that all you wanted was happiness? forgot that they were the ones that tore your heart, that they were the one that ended it?
Then again what about you? Did you forget? Did you make any mistake? Did you do the wrong move? Is this all just a lie or a dream? What is real? Who can be trusted? What about pain and hurt? Time??
All these questions and these happenings around me. Unable to control it... Things become a habit easily. Pain become too painful. Facial expression goes it's way wether my heart and mind is with it that's another story. I couldn't care less about life as it is? Ppl hurting me? I've been having that all my life. What is new. But who do i know to trust? which path am i to take? which mountain to climb and which sea to cross? should I continue waiting for the next bus? should I just follow which ever life boat that comes my way even if it's a pirate's boat?
I want answers yet I myself can't produce them. I want time yet mother nature forbits it. I want peace but satan wouldn't let it. I want my mind back but stress has taken it away from me.
What do i want? I dunno and don't care anymore.....