2nd concert practise

was shit.... It was terrible. I was 1st playing for a 3rd year student before the performance and it was alright although still not good. But the moment i stepped out there and played, everything went wrong. I was memorising the piece and most of my friends came early to see me play although I didn't want them to come. I nearly stopped and i kept playing the wrong notes but i kept telling myself to go on and not stop. And with that, it passed me. The grading was shit though. When I came out surprisingly i had good comments. Even by reading the students comments, it wasn't as bad as i thought i was. But what was bad WAS bad... ermmm... as in the examiner gave me quite a bad grading compared to my last semester's piece which was much more difficult then this piece.
I suppose my clarinet teacher is right, I pay better with harder pieces but easy pieces are just difficult for me....
Hmmm.....
Had no mood to write in lately. Everything going wrong but i suppose i should stop complaining and just walk forward with my head up high and a confident attitude....
Hmmm....
Another day to get through. Can't wait to graduate.