~damn that musicalbird~

It's been a week since I've been having this horrible headache. I thought it was because I needed more rest or that I'm stressing out. I don't think I'm stressing and I've had my rest. Especially during the weekend. Took the drugs but still my head hurts like crazy.
Musicalbird? (=
That used to be my msn nic more then 7 years ago. Going to singing lessons every week made me realize how much music is to me. Singing is part of me and it's turning me into the confident person i wanna be. It's made me realize that is who i am. I am filled and happy after singing. The satisfying feeling - the more i feel like projecting my voice and be not so scared of hearing my own voice.
This is why I wanna do theatre so much. It brings me to a different world. It calms my mind although my heart beats furiously.
I'm turning into a music freak. That's what I am. Dependent too much on feelings and the heart. It seems to be that way. Is it better? I don't know. I'm not sure about anything anymore. I never use to be like this. I use to know what to do and used to be able to predict the outcome and the future quite clearly.
Now I'm just even more scared and my stupid feelings are creeping out from being hidden.
However musical the bird is, there is no winning side to everything... (=