Back to the beginning
Hey faithful readers, sorry for the long pause... Been occupied with my own problems and depression and God knows wat.
Today, 1st day of uni. Not sure what to expect. New piano teacher, new students, new subjects, new sight, new year, new semester.... (you get the idea)
I woke up thinking things which I refuse to see. I've broken my relationship with God as most of u might have known. Maybe I should give him another chance. If I'm so willing to give ppl chances, why not God? After all I've been hurt emotionally and physically by humans, what can God do to me which could be worse? Trust? Why would I bother trusting anyone. Everything is just words. Faith? Someone said that I still have faith in things if i bothered talking about it. Feelings? Screw that. It's gonna be a tough battle between my mind and heart.
Speaking about chance, maybe I should give the guys chances. I mean what could be so bad? There are sweet guys out there it's just that I'm not too keen on them. You never know the wonders of nature unless you've driven with it.
And right now I gotta rush to uni to start practising. Cherious..... ;)
posted by mya @ 6:10 am
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9 Comments:
...sometime we can tell it's a spiritual distress, which has a meaning for this term. As with you, to be honest with yourself, are you angry at 'god' or at somebody or specific people?
-xoxo
lol... good question. but oh wellz... couldn't be bothered about all the past....trying to deal with my future
In that case, are you sure you won't lose your mind/temper again once sb or ppl show up in person or in your mind? there is no other time than the present...in fact, it's the only time you have, for anything, inlcuding making decisions, that affect you in the future...not to change your past! But you are given time to sit back and evaluate, what is going on/wrong with others and yourself. There is no other time as well, if you don't make peace with yourself or anyone, burying the soul deep inside, and let it out in the future, just for another disaster. Right? if you agree that's a good question.
As a reader/readers, we can tell easily, how the mood fluctuates, with what general pictures set in your moments (there are not yet to be the picture of life yet)mentioned. But one thing, i think it's very unfair, by involving "god". Don't worry, many blame 'gods', but once money comes back, life settled, that symptom is gone. Many involve 'god', because they can't or don't want to face the real person/people in life, rather they victimize 'god', who can't do anything, or has nothing to do about their and others' behaviors/actions/decisions. If they keep doing that for long, they will realize one day, they can't resolve anything by blaming 'god', that trick doesn't work anymore; and they will find 'sth' else, until there is none they could think of, they frustrate, distress, depress. If they work, the inferior will suffer, the superior will have no good impression, and the most important key here for you to think, these people are not happy.
Why don't just relax and think, and or perhaps pick up the phone to talk to the person/people, to give yourself a chance, to understand. Remember, many keep the wrong perception for all their lives and bury the wrong understanding together in the grave yard.
-xoxo
hang in there dearie!
-pauline
Keep sane and eat well.
Always live to fight another day.
Unless we drop dead then we will have either new life or no life.
Cheers
U have a unique life how about that.
Happy birthday.
you are weird as you depict yourself is a weird life, however that, yea? But you really need to look into your wellness inside and with others, how you get along with yourself and others......otherwise, you will get worse, because you are that bad at early 20, it will be bad later, if your brothers and sisters, they will get older, parents retire and less income and you will be in another position, another kind of stress to you. Take the present time to improve yourself, remember, it's for yourself and nobody has nothing to do with you. You are all accountable to what you eat, what you do, what you eliminate, what you study, what you practice... good luck, ta:)
have u ever thought that God was the one to help u go thru whatever u're going thru, eventho u may have felt that He's so distant?
i really think you shud give him a chance.
Don't turn away from God in your youth (See Ecclesiastes 12:1)
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