Sentimental Journey
Sentimental as it is I wonder how the grass is at the other side of the river.I find myself looking forward to next year.Looking forward in studyin music and soon improvisation which would be so darn cool.
But on the other hand I find myself slipped frm God.Oh how sick i feel wen ppl talk about christianity n God.Oh how i roll my eyes seeing 'christians' talk about the bible n the ways of christians.It's not like i don't believe it.I do believe.It's juz tat I see fake ppl everywhere.N tat gives me a huge impression.
I get so tired wif life n my everyday routine tat I nearly met wif an accident juz now.Was actually half asleep.Thank goodness i realized in time to avoid hitting a car or the tree.Now tat was really scary.
I get so sick wif life I juz can't wait to leave Kuching.And wen i do I don't really intend to cum bck.Only during music festivals n maybe to get food from home... ;p But other then tat there's no reason to cum home at all....
posted by mya @ 7:45 pm
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Hi Lorraine, now you know I have been reading your blog. I sense something is wrong lately because you have been so quiet. So one of the problem bugging you is some "Christians." I don't blame you. I have been there before. In fact, I left church for a long time because of them but now I realize that it is really not about them at all. It is not even about me! It is about Him - God. When I realize how much God loves me - inspite of all the crazy and bad things I have done - I realize that He still loves me and has taken care of me. Now, nobody can take that love away from me. Trust me, people are trying very hard - especially certain "Christians." But no way man, nothing is going to make me leave God and therefore His "True Chruch!" I hope you can see it that way too. Talk to Him - really, really talk to Him. You will see that things may not become smooth but He sure will give you the strength to ride through every storm. Finally, if you need somebody human like on earth type of people to talk to - I'm here. Love, Uncle Arthur.
Lol... whoa... Kinda a suprise to find u here,uncle.... =D
Hmmm... hard to say.The 2nd problem is family problem.Most the time I feel like screamin but think tat the best way is to keep quiet if i don't wan things to get worse.Wat to do.Sum family r ment to be as it is sum r not.
Like wat I've said I'd be better off wif everything wen i actually leave Kuching coz i find myself of no use here.No encouragement or any high spirit.
Anyways I only have a few more month then I'll be outta 'hell'...
You were right to keep quiet when speaking out causes more problem. However, you also need to expressed your feelings instead of keeping them all bottled-up inside. Talk to somebody and if you find it difficult to talk to people, you can always talk to God. I do that all the time. I'd rather talk to God than people because God never belittle me or laugh at how insignificant my problems are. I have learned that no matter how terrible the situation I am in, it cannot be worse than millions of people out there who are less fortunate than me. Some do not even know where their next meal is going to come from! Sure, it is good sometimes to get away for a while but do not bank all you hope on that solving your predicament becoz sometimes it's worse out there than home. Be strong!
Well,for the 2nd time i feel God not visible in my life.I'm not worried coz i knoe I'll soon get over tis as i did last year.I juz need to be alone without God now.
N I think I've faced more horrible things then most ppl.It's juz tat ppl has not knoe wat I've been through my whole life.
Dunno la... Now all i have to do is juz wait for time to pass....
I'm glad. I know you will get over it. Remember, anytime you need a pair of hearing ears - I'm here as well as quite a lot of your friends around whom I know care and love you too. And of course Jesus is also around although right now He may not sound too real. I am sure he'll understand your need to be alone a while.
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