that's how ppl think of me

And to think I'm not noticed and just invisible.... I'm starting to change my lifestyle. As most of you might know, it's really hard to get me to relax and get out to have some fun. Always work, work, excuses and 'NO'...
Promised a friend I'd go party with him since he's promised to send me home every week after tap dancing. So I went to a Malaysian society party thingy to meet more malaysians and the worse thing is I feel absolutely old there. Nearly everyone was younger then I although they thought I was still 19 or 20 which was kinda funny when they figured my age. Had a few of them talk about how amazed they were with the acapella group I worked with for MGM(Malam Gema Merdeka,Malaysian performance thingy). They said it's the best acapella they've heard done by malaysians here. All sang in parts and all. I honestly thought it was pretty bad but they said it sounded great to them. I didn't get any cheer that night coz no one knew me(no wonder I felt terrible after that night).
Anyways, had my music teachers and lecturers tell me what they thought of me. Some of you know I'm doing music education which means practical teaching. Been teaching primary school for awhile and I love the boys. The teachers said, I had a good connection with the boys and the boys seem to like me very much. They mentioned that not many prac students have that gift of communicating with students and all. More on that but there are many senarios with my boys being just the cutest things. Makes me feel glad I'm doing education although it's stressful. Teacher says my lessons are good although most the time it doesn't work out and I'm never happy with my lessons. They say I'm being too hard on myself(which is entirely true. I have to be reminded that every so often).
Piano performance was on wednesday. Thought it went bad. Saw a few critics when I was up front and sorta paniced. Started trembling like mad(worse tremmer ever). I couldn't control my finger movements and from the recording i did of it, it sounded rhythmatically bad. Thought my warm ups sounded far better. Had a few unfamiliar ppl came up to me saying that I did a good job and surprisingly my examiner wrote really good comments. saying.."...It's a very promising performance" which is good but when listening to my recording I couldn't bare listen to it without laughing at myself.
Piano teacher says I'm 1 of his good students that actually practise. He says heaps of his students come for lesson not practising but he could hear alot of improvement and sees alot of potential in me. Hopefully that comes up to a distinction in my year end results or if possible a high distinction instead of a 1 mark before distinction again.
Sang in church(helping out the choir members while being on the piano). A few ppl sitting close to the piano started positioning themselves so that they can hear me sing when I was playing the piano at the same time. Then got a few church members saying my voice was lovely and I should ask to sing solos with the choir. Kinda random.. I started singing for them to hear their part and to help them. Not thinking of projecting and thought of being noticed.
So.... as far as everything is concerned... It seems to be going up hill from here... Just waiting for the downfall as it always happens to me.