i'm juz weird and strange

Haven been on this thing for ages and there's lots which happen in these pass few months.
My wrist/joints/fingers/arms hurt like hell now even without playing music so this would be my last year on the piano professionally. It's up to the extend where even typing (not writing) hurts at times or eating or holding a piece of paper too long. Have to find more gigs to sing back in kch. I just wish i had a pianist then we could jam. But unfortunately non. I'll have to write more songs.

I hardly or never write about the special someone who somehow makes a difference in my life. But I find this one(let's just call this person A7) absolutely seem to connect to my life. When I'm doing/playing music it reminds me of A7. Dancing and hats does too somehow. I've been writing music for awhile but it used to be absolutely depressing/sad and deep emotional pieces but with A7 I started writing more lyrical pieces and I have more inspiration and ideas to write more. I just haven put most on paper coz been too busy with writing music in uni. But even writing music in uni was easy with A7. Didn't see A7 for awhile and writing music seemed harder and my everyday mood got worse and worse. Just by 1 person which could make a difference is a really weird feeling but I like it.
Now i'm feeling numb from the physical pain. I just can't wait to perform and sing again. I just love my music too much...