Guess what... I just found out yesterday that my fri classes would be cancelled... Can u believe that..... Seriously I'm furious... Couldn't the lecturers like tell us far before hand? Some may ask y I'm so darn mad.. Well, as u see... I could have gone back home today instead of last week.... I could have been back for 5 days instead of the miserable 3. *sigh.... Now I'm just wondering what I'd be doing the whole week end... Considering all my freinds would be going back to their home towns..... My friends did ask me to follow them back but the thing is exam is so darn close... It's about 2 weeks away... Maybe on the other hand, it's God's decision... I mean, then again, it gives me more time to study instead of being at home fooling around or wasting my time... Even if I'm back this weekend, I'd be stuck at home studying right.... ? I keep wondering...... but I suppose what happened, just happened....
Better stop here... It's gonna rain soon and need to get back to my hostel before I get wet..... :)

Well, it's been quite long since I've last blogged.... Have been geeting lazier and lazier..... :P Well, I'm only human.....
I've finished my mock exam just last week and went back straight after my exam on thu... It was sortta fun being home though I wished I had time to go out with my old classmates and church frens... Yalah.... I still can't drive the car out.... Basically it's cause my car is still too new for me to drive it all by myself.... I just miss the 'kembara' I used to have.. It brings back lots of memories. Esp the time I had my 1st car accident and the 1st time I went out cruzzing with Lyn.. Man, those were the days..... *sigh....
Well, what the heck.... Wish I was home for a longer period... I didn't have time to talk to the youth... They were basically too busy practicing their play to talk to me but anyway.... their play was darn choonted... Can cry 1..... Darn touching..... Felt bad though.... Didn't get to really talk much to much of the youth besides Gina.....
Supricingly I met 1 of my ex-classmates at her restaurant which I didn't know belonged to her... Man, does she really look totally different... Slimer and longer hair... It has been awfully a long time since I've met all my classmates. It would be great if I could meet them all again.. The problem now is transportation. Well, that can be solved soon.... (I hope)....
I've been getting back my mock papers and boy, do I feel darn depress...... It has improved from the last mock but it's not good enough.... I'm actually aiming higher.... Now I've been getting basically C's but am hoping to reach A's and at least 1 B.... I suppose what I get depands on wat God 1's me to get...... I just hope that I'll do well enough to do veterinary if I'm to do science......
Anyway, gtg now.... need to head back to my books....

Hmmm... not much news about the Russion any more.. It's quietin' now... But there has been lots of different kinds of tale abou it....
It's like my 2nd last day of my mocks and then I'll be home tomorro. (yup... for those out there back in Kuching, I'm telling ya but dunno when ur reading this...) All I just hope is when I'm home, I won't be greated by arguements or fights like I always do everytime... I just wanna come home feeling happy and cheery.. Like the time I came home supricingly on my mum's birthday. I tell u, that was the funnest and happiest time in my life. I still can't forget that day. If only I had sumthing special for my birthday.... *hint!! hint!!!* :)
Anyways I wasn't feeling all that well for 2 days... To tell u the truth I actually felt like dying. Not mentally or spiritually but physically. I had chest pain and was practically gasping for air for more than a day. It was scary considering I nearly passed out in both my papers yesterday. When I walk a mile, I feel like I've just climb Mount Kinabalu. It was really that bad.... The pain was since 2 nights ago. It was still painful tis morning. I just thank God that it wasn't as bad as the day before. It still hurts now but only once in awhile. I woke up early this morning at 6 to study but then i started feeling pain on my chest by 7 something so I went back to sleep but then, the funny thing is everytime after I wake up, I'm perfectly fine.. My frens have been telling me to stop studying and my dad says it's stress but I dunno... I don't think it is cause last year I was more stress then i am now.... Anyway, just letting u know cause I'm bored that I've been taking hot sweets so I'm ok for now... :)
Yup, I'm not studying.. Not yet..... but will be back in my books soon. :)
Well, for those in Kuching, see u soon... :)

Ok....more info about what happened 2 nitez ago... This guy is like a Russion who is the only child in the family and has no dad... It's either the dad died years ago r left the family. Hmm.... he used to study CIMP and is not even staying at the condo hostel. He used to stay there but is not now... He 'jumped' of from his frens place. But then again the question is y didn't his frens stop him from attempting what he did? Well, some says that he was pushed by his frens and others say since he eat weed(as in drugs. not the plant), he didn't know what he was doing..... But then the real reason is still not known by anyone. Or so it seems...... My fren knows this guy and the family and she says that the guys mum is like super nice and friendly... It's sad to think about it esp when he is like the only child to her. Well, what happened happened. This may change another person's life or may make those arround think more about the meaning of life and wahteva.... Well, we can't really avoid this kinda thing. When it happens, it happens. It's not like we can go back into time and avoid these happenings.... Even though we might have known that person or if that person is like 1 of our loved 1s... We may cry to release the pain and sadness but even that can't change anything. It may hurt really bad and I do know how it feels but we just have to continue our life and live it to the fullest no matter what happens.... Always look on the bright side of the world and everything will be just alright.
Well, I don't think I have anything else to say about the whole thing.....
*sigh

HERE YE!! HERE YE!!
Good some news from Sunway college itself. And it's true. I'm serious. Anyway,... here's the news... Last night just before midnight someone DID commited suicide at the hostel condo.It's not at the apartment where I stay but at the much more luxurious area... :) Anyway,.. they say that he was high on drugs and that he fell from the 10th floor. I dunno much details for now... It was a shocking news. It's a good thing I don know that guy cause I don't think I'd be able to sleep or think..... At 1st when my fren told me about it I didn't believe but soon everyone started talking about it and how they did saw the body or something.... Till now I don't know who the fellow is. All I know is that he's dead and his parents are here... Some say he's an international student. That I've no idea... I mean it's darn scary thinking about it.... My frens said that they saw a figure dropping down the window while watching movie... Dunnola.. Lot's of news... I'll tell more once I know more info... Anyway just letting you all know about the news..... Dunno if it'll be on the papers or dunno if they'll even mention the college's name. We'll soon find out.

Don really koe wat to write.... It's been a weird week..... Anyway,... I'll have to warn you all that it's the 'chicken pox' season. 1 after another my frens getting them.... And the thing is mocks just next week. I wonder if they'll let those chicken pox aliens sit for their exam. Hopefully none of us will get it right before our real exam. That would be a bummer..... Oh ya.. It also seems to be the hair cut season here. Most of my frens seem to be getting their hair cut. Makes me wanna cut my hair as well....lol.... ;) dunnola....
I'm suppose to be performing again at a hotel this sabbath but this time it's under the college. But the sad part is I'm not performing though I really want to and that it's my big chance for me. Gotta remember to keep the sabbath day holy no matter what. *sigh And the thing is that my mocks the week after that and I don't wanna waste my time practicing when everyone else is studying..... Well, what comes around comes around. If I can't go for it there are always other times which WILL happen eventually... :)

6:30pm
hehe.....
Am sortta feeling better from all the days of longing to go home.... But then
maybe it's cause of all the attention and fun I'm getting from my classmates if
not my music society frens.. :)
Mocks just around the corner and just by the name of it scares me..... Well,
exams always scare me anyways.... Today I've been asked to watch movie by 3-5
different ppl.. Too bad I couldn't go... I mean with exam around the corner I
would be insane to be going out having fun....
Nowadays I have been having headaches.. Maybe it's cause of my eye sight...
Last sunday I went to check and my degree rose by 25.. both eyes... Arrgghh!!!
By the way, I'm not blind yet..... I know...I know... I cacat. No
perfect vision like some of you guys and gals...
It has been raining heavily in kl everyday. If not so then it would rain in the
evening.. In this condision, all our clothes can't dry properly. :( But then
again I prefer the rain then the heat... Oh ya. I have to go figure this......
My insane friends have been swimming every evening in the rain... I still can't
believe they can stand the cold..... I wonder how they do it... Have to go ask
them about it....
Dunnola.. I'm actually quite bored... My hostel is halfway being fogging.......
It actually woke me up from my beauty sleep. Now I'm like half dead typing here
waiting for myself to wake up to get back to my study.......
Anyways I think I'd better stop writing.. It's eating up my time of
studying.....lol.... :)

*sigh...
I've just type in my entry and published it until when the computer computer dieded on me...... AARRGGGHHH!!!! Why is everything unto me... :(
Well, just had my chem practical mock yesterday and I really scrued it up... Stupid paper... 1st my burette was leaking and I didn't realized it till like quite some time. Tha lost me 5-10 mins.... Then at the calculation part, they didn't give th Ar on the paper but on the board. The thing was, the lecturers didn't tell us and half the students in the lab didn't see it or didn't notice it till like after the paper was over.... And I also didn't have enough time in correcting my answers.. Tha was like 10 marks gone....... :(... Am so sad liaw.... I was so dissapointed in it that I called my parents. Thank God my dad was understanding.. He was like.. "it's only mocks" and "you all should all go complain to the lecturer".
I am suppose to be performing again tomorro but the thing is I don't have my clarinet with me.. Just sent it for servicing as you know.. :) I've told the lecturer in charge about it but guess what he said, "oh, in that case play the violin la"... In conclusion, my dicision is still I'M NOT PLAYING!!!! I mean come on, it's already close to my exam... My bio mock practical is this fri and my other mock papers are like in 2 weeks time...
Darn, that reminds me... I WANNA GO HOME!!!. I don't really think about it until I'm with my books... Nowadays I can't really concentrate in my studies as much as I used too... Maybe it's also cause I keep bumping into my friends at the library and we end up talking and laughing... Now I'd have to find a new spot to study in the library... If I'm at the hostel, the bed's like calling me ..... "Lorraine,....come to me....... I'm so comfortable....."...lol.... Anyways,.... I just hope I'd be able to sudy till the real exams over.... Then once I'm back, I'm not going to bring any books back.. Okok.. Maybe only 1 or 2 but I'm not going to be studying everyday.... I'm so sick of studying already I think I'd die of insanenity...:P

Well, i just actually got back from Kl... Was actually in Sungai Wang. Took a bus there.... At 1st, it was like 8 of us. We were all walking to the bus stop at pyramid(which is a 5-10 min walk). It was at 1st hot then couldy.... The next thing u know, it started pouring.... When the bus came I was kinda panic because I seem to be the only 1 in the bus while the rest were all changing their mind because it was really raining heavily and the thing is we had to change bus somewhere around kl.... But thank God Wendy followed me behind... So it ended up to be only 2 instead of the 8 that were going to Kl.... The 6 were tremendously wet while the 2 of us in the bus were actually sortta dry... The only problem at that time wat that we didn't have my umbrella and it might be raining in kl.... After sometime 2 of my frens were running next to the bus with my umbrella... They were already really wet at that time but ya... I had my umbrella back... After half an hours in the bus we finally reached kl.... And guess wat, it was totally dry there...lol...... Like thank goodness..... We went to chamber's music shop and did our stuff. I did finally service my clarinet. At 1st the owner didn't recognize me.... Then after talking to him for awhile, he was like...."I have been wanting to ask u but how do u keep slim..."... I was like...errrr..... How was I suppsoe to answer that... Wendy says that I'm not slim but considered skinny liaw.. Dunnola.. Maybe haven been eating alot lately.. Been skipping lunch everyday already for a week... I just don't have the mood to eat... But ya ok.... He even told my mum when she called him to talk about my bugget in servicing my clarinet....
We left sunway at 3 and reached back in snway at 10pm... both ways using bus but then I went to my frens condo at around 11pm.....
the only thing which I haven done is book my ticket back to Kuching... Yup, this would give some of you guys the int that I'm coming back soon.. I'm just not going to tell when... It's a suprice from me all the time rite?...lol......

:) First of all... HaPpY SaBbAtH!!!!!.....
Guess wat... I just came back from a hotel.... stayed there for free... My stay was paid by the mission... Why?? I was their pianist for the sabbath.. I could actually stay till tomorro afternoon but I've already made an appointment with friends today so I'm back at the hostel..... HOSTEL, not HOTEL... lol... Anyway, my hotel mate was tis gal from sabbath who just started working with the mission as an accountant.. She's from Sabah. I met a few other members there last night but didn't see them again this morning.. Too bad. I thought that I could have taken photo with them. I even met Pr Wung, uncle Peter from Kuching and Pr Matthew and his wife,aunty Jinnie whom I have never did spoke to them considering they actually know my parents is kinda scary.. Oh ya. Met Pr Edmund Liah as well.... It was kinda fun considering I was talking with this guy called Donny and Wei Siang(x boyfriend of Kimberly). They keep talking to me in chinese and realizing that I don't actually understand.... Fun guys though they are like a few years older. Wei Siang who was actually an engineer is going to be a pastor... I'm kinda suprice and admire these kind of ppl.... Dunnola...
hehe... had free food and was in an aircon room.... Sortta comfortable but couldn't sleep last night... Maybe it's because I'm too use to the poor ppl's life style.... lol....
Anyway, my piano playing.... well, at 1st they say I'm to only play the theme song and I was like..."ONLY??" but then today I played a few songs... Was using a keyboard and couldn't really hear myself but other then that everything was ok or so I think it was....
Anyways... gtg now... need to go service my clarinet... Like finally I get the chance to go fix it.......