Wednesday, March 31, 2004

*sigh...........
I suppose this will be 1 of the saddening write in's I've writen.... I dunno why but I haven been myself lately and it has been like that for a few weeks already.... This week is 1 of the worst week for me... I mean nothing is wrong with my life..... I've met lots of new frens... Gotten close with them... My monthly or weekly test is improving..... Gone out.... am laughing and fooling around in class... Performed a few times..... etc.... In this, nothing seems wrong but something's really bothering me lately but I can't figure out what.... I've talk to my ko-ko Alvin and felt better abit but I just can't figure out what's bothering me..... Maybe I need attention but then again I seem to be getting it... Maybe I need friends to talk too but I've been talking to lots of friends about almost everything..... I was thinking that it might be cause I'm home sick but I don't wanna admit it comsidering I don't miss anyone in particular back in Kuching..... I just gotta recharge before my mock exams... I don't seem to be getting any pressure or anything. Or so it seems....
I've been asked today by the chinese society of Sunway College to host a singing workshop or something like that to their members.... I haven really given my answer but anyway I'll see waht thing goes... If they ask me again I suppose I'll have to agree with them... After all music is everything to me... :)
I just hope myu blues would disappear soon before something terrible happens to me.....

Sunday, March 28, 2004

Another week of music

*sigh.......* Finish performing yet still playing music again for ppl
Yesterday I did a special music in church.. I or rather me and my accompanies didn't get to practice until that morning... Wendy did practice but we didn't get to practice together cause we couldn't get to use the piano in college..... I had to teach Wendy the song and teach her how to play the song which I've choosen.. It was a medley song.... I wasn't nervous at all until we got closer and close to church that morning.. I dunno why though... Performed for God well I suppose considering I heard quite alot of AMENS. Kam Soon(1 of the church members or rather elder), said quite alot of good things about the song and me to the church... I suppose it was ok though I wasn't quite satisfied with it.... Or maybe it was that I was so relief after finishing my song until I didn't hear anyone's comment to me about my playing..... lol... ;P I was so happy that Roger and Cecelia aould make it to PJ church... I was like considered overjoyed to be seeing some youth from Kuching or rather someone from Kuching.... Wendy was supriced when I squeeked just seeing Roger and Cecelia..... lol...... Not forgetting right after service, Beldon came up to me asking me to play piano for next week's service... I was like ok until he said I was to play in a Hotel. He said there was going to be a talk.....something!!!something!!!!.... lol... It was under the mission... I'll have to play piano on fri night and on saturday morning..... But then again,the 1 thing that got me thinking is that he came to me and he asked me 1st from all the other pianist in the church.... I felt quite touched actually.. It was like saying I'm the best pianist in the church... ok!ok! Maybe it's not so but the feeling's something like that..... I agreed though actually I planned to go back home that weekend... And thank God I did agree coz my bio and chem mork practical is the week after that. And I plan not to tell anyone but my classmate which I haven met for 2-3 years since Form5. Maybe I'll have to ask Silas for transport help... hmmm.....
Anyway...... that was Sabbath.....
The day before, me and 4 friends went to Kl... We were looking for the MAS building to get my Gard's card. That card is used by students so that we can get 50%-75% discount on every air ticket we get.... It was actually me only that needed to go.... Anyway, we were kinda lost looking for the building. After finding it and settling my stuff, we actually got lost from Kl.... We nearly went to Johor... It was darn scary.... Considering 1 of the passenger was late for an appointment and the driver dran hungry from not eating the whole day.... But then again, the driver... ok!ok! .........Young Soon,got food from a patrol station while pumping oil to his car.. And to face tha fact that I was the living table of his.... I had to hold his can of 'vanila coke' and his 'tiger biscuit'.... This guy is like really darn funny.... He would make anyone smile and laugh no matter what condision he is at... Whether or not he is hungry, tired or watever,.... he would still have the energy to make anyone laugh.... :)
Last night, I went out to watch Scooby_doo2 with the guys... err..... ok!ok! with YOung Soon and his friends..... which I practically just met.... I was like the only girl that night..... But what the heck... I had a free ticket.. .lol.... yup. Young Soon paid for me... I don't really like it if ppl pay things for me... errr.... well, it also depends on the situation la..... But oh well, I did sortta laughed myself out on the funny parts... :)
Well, I suppose that's all... I've been kinda moody these few days but thank God I've been going out coz I think I would be in worst condition......

Thursday, March 25, 2004

Like finally I can get thorugh after searching for more than 50 computers for the last week.... I'll start with last week....

18th March 2004
That was a unforgettable night.. It was the night where music society performed... I had been couching the college's choir for the pass week and they have been doing better than the 1st time they started.. I'm actually proud of them.. :) Proud that I've made a difference and made choir fun for them and made them sound better in sound and in volume... :P
Well, my roll there.... Well, I played my clarinet though I also did wanted to play the piano... I couldn't really hear myself but some ppl say I played very well and others said nothing... There was a bit of caos here and there but I did have fun.... With my flutist frens, my singers and this violanist I met a few weeks ago.. Boy, his violin playing is so darn cool... Wish I could play like him.... Though it would take time....
The whole thing finished after 11pm... Then we all went to mamak(eating place). Me and 1 of my girl-frens where at that time trying to avoid "Prince". it's so ....*toot*..... He actually asked 1 of my other girl frens to move so that he could seat next to me, But the thing is he wasn't even eating on the table... And taht was when he spilt his milo not only on himself but on me too... I wasn't fast enough to move far enough to avoid.... I was so darn mad I nearly scream... I told him off sayin..."There is a table for you to use. Use it...". And guess what he said...."ahhh....but I wanna see...". He was practically whinning like a baby. At that time I was looking at my pictures being taken from the performance cause I was trying to forget the fact that he is sitting next to me.....

20 March 2004
At that time it was around 9 pass in the morning.. Was on my way to church alone again with some members who fetches me once in awhile.... They asked me about my week and with my big mouth, I mentioned about the performance and what I did... Now I have to perform in church this sabbath..... on my clarinet.... I didn't want and I wanted at first... if u know what I mean... Anyways.... through this week.... I was trying to find an accompanies.... Asking Belinda(one of my church member frm college). But she couldn't really play that well... Then I tried asking Li Yien(my music fren who lives a few floors above me). But she also couldn't.... But thank God Wendy(my flute and music society fren :) ..)agreed and could make it... Though she's not a christian I just hope she'd be interested in christianity. Esp when Pr Khoo would be preaching...... I just hope she'd like it there.... I'll be crossing my fingers for both my performance that sabbath and my frens....

23 March 2004
That afternoon, my fren called me to say that he had just registered both me and him for next weeks badminton competition on the mixed catogory..... I was so darn mad cause I've said that I don't wanna play.. Partly cause I hadn't been really in a good mood this pass few days or for this week..... He actually laughed to the fact that I was quite mad... But the thing is he laughed non stop for quite some time which sorta freaked me out........ Later on, I messeged him telling him to try find someone to replace me.... Hope I wouldn't need to play.....

At this time.. I dunno but I just wanna go back home.... Seeing my lovely doggies and giving them doggy treats and a brush. Pluss seeing some of the old youth... Boy, I do really miss them.... Didn't get to meet Roger last sabbath cause he lost his way... He ended up spending sabbath outside.... :(
I've heard that BN lost with ROCKET in Kuching.... I wonder how it would be like... I just thank God that it wasn't PAS. But then again my fren said that it's not good.... I just hope they do something to Kuching.. That place is so darn undeveloped compared to the other cities in Sarawak and Semenanjung.... lol... Maybe that's cause I've stayed too long in kl.... :)

Well, I think I gtg now.... Am suppose to be studying but used that time trying to find a computer to write in here.....

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

Last night was both stressfull and fun... I mean stressful cause of the stupid practice and the stupid 'Prince"(his name is prince. I'm serious). Anyway, after the practice me and my music frens went eat at the mamak stall outside college.. Boy, did we have the laughs.. We were laughing like mad as if nobodies business... :)...lol...... And now, I'm only left with RM2 in my purse... :(
That's besides the point,.... today was our chemistry test... Structure test.... there's this gal whom I really hate.. well, this morning she skip bio class... Let's just put it this way, she always skip class... During the test, I know she's been trying to copy me. The thing is this is not teh 1st time. More like the 2nd or 3rd time she tried to copy from me. At 1st, there was this guy sitting next to me. He had his things next to mine so .. ya.. he was sitting next to me. But he wasn't there at that time. More of went to the toilet if you ask me.... This gal, she just push his things to the next table and sat next to me... I knew she was going to try copy again. I told Evelyn,"Is she that desperate?". Anyway, so during test,.... she actually sortta finished quite early.. Let's just put it this way. She's fat so to make it easier, we'll name her fatso liar.... So fatso liar, was leaning quite close to me. She close her paper early too. But then she opened it again and started writing. I saw that her paper was very blank.That time, I noticed a mistake on my paper saying"oh shit..." coz there's only like2 minutes left. So I started to liquid of my answer. And there she was liquiding her answer, the same one as well.... Now I really dunno wat to do... I suppose she would be lying about her results again to everyone esp the teachers. I'm not suprise cause that's wat she did on the last test we had......
Not only that, our chemistry teacher said that today's test is only part1 of it. Tomorro we'll be having part2 of the test. But this time oblective. Thank God... Anyways, gtg now... Got this talk about science and Architecture which I'm interested at.....

Monday, March 15, 2004

Hmm....Today there will be a practice with the choir and instruments but the problem is we haven practice yet and our parts are not readily finish writen. I just hope later we can at least practice 3-5 times before we practice before the choir... It was me and my big mouth which got me into serious trouble.. Yup. Sometimes I just wish i'd just shut my mouth but the at times I wish I've said something.... Well, wat's done is done. Now all we have to do is wait and see...
I've just finish my mats test.. I'm actually the 1st to finish. I dunno how I'd do but I know it's far more better then my other test last time in March intake....There's only like 1 or 2 questions which I'm not sure.. I just hope there are no careless mistakes this time....
It's 1 week snce I've had my flu and until today, I still have it... I feel just so miserable. Arrgghhh!!! I just can't stand it.. I've been blowing my nose like crazy. When I take my pills, they make me drouzy in class..... I just wanna go home. Esp at this time. I wanna be with my dogs and my bed and the pianos and the sight of home and trees.. Not buildings and people and technology.... Pluss polution...:(
I've just spent my 1 1/2 week allowance in 1 day... so I'll have to save now. Since I wanna go back, I'll have to cut down totally with my spending...
I've been having weird dreams... Dreams like meeting the youth back home and having fun with them or performing in a big croud... Sometimes my dream can be really freeky... The reason I say so is coz my dream most of the time comes true. But I do miss the youth. Esp when gina is back in Kuching... lol.... I remember, we used to be bestfrens.... Swimming and playing together. Chit-chatting in class and things like that. That was until I left Sunny Hill School... *sighh... those good old days..... :)
Just remembering those times,... I remember I used to have lots of bestfrens.. Alayne is my bestfren in church. Gina in Sunny Hill School, Maxine in st Teresa School and 2 gals(I forgot their names but am trying to find them again) from kindergarden at Sunny Hill School. Jus my best cuz and the rest I dunno whether I'll consider them bestfrens or not coz I can't call them my bestfrens wen they don't to me... Well, I'll just consider them best pals.... :)
By the way, if u don't understand watever I've writen for the pass week, please mind me cause I've been blurr this whole week with the flu....

Thursday, March 11, 2004

Well, it's time to tell the story..:)
Yesterday was just about ok day... accept that I'm still sick snififing away like a dog.The only difference is that I don't sniff at things.. I only sniff at the open air....lol.... ya.ya.ya.. I'm being lame.... Anyway, about yesterday.
Last night I was couching the college choir for about 20-30 min.. They wasn't as bed as I thought they would be..Or maybe it's the gals considering I was concentrating more of those guys which where actually making the choir laugh most of the time..I just hope they did learn something... My explaination always did suck anyway.... But then a few of my frens said it was for the 1st time actually interesting and this was one of the best singing they have done.. I'm proad of it... My classmates where pretty shocked :) but anyway....!!! They were like Woah!!! until I passed the choir back to the advisor.. Guess what??!! Yup...back to their terrible singing... Shish..... Maybe it's the way teh advisor teachers them.. You have to amake choir an enjoyable thing... I can't seem to tell the advisor so coz he wouldn't listen to me.. Darn him... Maybe it's because he knows me more then the rest. Maybe because I'm young. Or maybe it's because he still wans to be considered very good in music....(ya whatever...) Well, the other thing is that the conductress SUCKS!!! sorry to say that but it's true.... I mean...err... ok it's hard to explain how she conducts but I'll consider it dancing,moving-ur-butt-up-and-down kinda thing rather than conducting. And the thing was the advisor said that she had conducted in her secondary school choir... Big deal.. So did I and many other ppl in choir.... :s
Oh ya.. there was this guy who's 16 and is doing Monesh-University-Foundation-Year(MUFY) keeps bugging every person in choir... My classmate was totally annoyed by him... I can understand why... I mean I also feel annoyed by him..... But I try not to show it.. My frens says I seem to be like interested as in friendly to him.. The thing is, I'm accepting ppl the way they are... I understand the feeling of being ignored and left behind with no one to talk to.. I've learned and to bare with it.... But I suppose by always doing so, it seems to get me into total trouble.... The dances which where dancing to the choirs singing didn't match at all. Ok, lets put it this way, I didn't understand what they were dancing about.It didn't make sence and it was like one of the Iban dances back home.. seriously I'm speacking the truth.It maybe sortta nice but it has no meaning to the song... It's just like normal mixed up dancing.......
Well, I suppose we'll have to wait till the performance next week... I just hope those choir members would use all the technic I've taught them.....

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

Well,time to tell what happened yesterday.... Well, me and Jo went to the audi. We were like"eh, where is everyone,nevermindla". Anyway, we were waiting until the advisor came. guess wat.... he asked us to sing solos. Just like trying to audition us for solo part or something.. Even some of my frens which were there tot so too..... After that, he started correcting us for things we know like ur an alto and ur a soprano... (like thanks for the info.I never knew it... duh!!!) or u should sing with your mouths wider (like we are just standing a few feets away from u..do u want us to scream in ur face???) and things like postures and some other stupid things... And it was as if I din't know music at all.. Considering my mum's a music teacher, I actually know more then him... It was a disgrace to me.... Anyway, that wasn't the end of the story. Then he asked so wat r u planing to do for the workshop. I didn't answer coz I was at that time already so piss off so my fren answered saying 1st we'd be startin off with the warm up. Then he stoped my fren just there and ask me to explain about it. So i did and the next thing I know it I was suppose to only do the warm up sections and pass the choir back to him. And that was it... Only that... I didn't know what to do but well, what's done is done. It's better then wishing I've taken the step in helping out.
The other horrible thing is I'm sick. Yesterday, I've been sneezing none stop from morning till night. I couldn't do anything. I couldn't study or concentrate cause of my stupid nose and sneeze. This morning, I woke up at 3am more than 5 times to drink. Every time I swollow, my throat hurts.Now I'm sniffing and have a sore throat. Oh what the hack... And I still ahven eaten medicine.... :(
Oh ya, yesterday there was a fight in the library. It was mother vs. boyfren. I missed it just by the minute.. After I left the library, my fren messeged me telling me that the fight had just began.. I dunno wats it all about but anyway it was liek whoa.........

Monday, March 08, 2004

Well, I seem to be awfully busy these days till I don't even have time to write in.. Anyway quite a lot of things happen for the pass week.... On fri night, I played the piano at the audi again with another pianist,Chor.At that night, I realised that I'm not such a bad pianist after all... Every pianist have their own style in playing and I have mine.... I learnt how to make weird cords from him but I dunno if I can still remember it.... I like my new As the deer playing now... :) I also realise that I can play better then Chor if I want to and that my sight-reading is alot beter then alot of ppl I know.....
Well,on saturday I was actually the earliest in church.. 1 of the members even said that my piano playing is very nice and that I play like I enjoyed playing.... That actually made my day considering I'm never confident in my playing ever.... After church, the youth got scolded by 2 elders. 1 guy is the one that likes to get ppl into trouble and doesn't like losin. I wanted to get him back which I did but he didn't wanna loss so he got me back. But the thing is we were all frezzin in the church considering every aircon was switched on full blast.. Well, it was all because they say that the youth talks alot in church.. But then again not all of us talk. that's besides the point but anyway....... After church me and my fren's house mates all went to MidValley for the Pet Exhibition thingy... We were all suppose to go to Sungei Wang to Chambers Music Store to get some things done but ended up in MidValley.... I got a few free dog food and bought biscuits and brush for my doggies.. Now I just can't wait to get home to give my doggies a treat... :) I could stay the whole day there... I just love those animals... I even touched a yellow huge snake... It wasn't that scary but anyway I really enjoyed myself... My fren said I really look dead considering I normally sleep on sabbath afternoons but I wouldn't miss the pet exhibition for the world... Oh ya, pluss ther was this huge dog 5 times the size of my white dog,Diana... It was like about my waist hight. And the fellar said that's not the maximum size... That dog cost RM5,000. I just can't wait to grow older.. Now I remembered why I always wanted to be a veterinary.... I just love those animals.... I can't wait to get them for myself. There was this Husky dog, German Shepard, errr..... I forgot the names but anyways.... they are just so darn *Cute*!!!!....:)
I was suppose to do a choir worshop for music society but it ended up to be too near my exam so I cancelled it.. Today, I heard news ... ok... I got a call from the advisor while at maths class saying or rather asking me to give a pre-demo TODAY to their section leaders... Can you believe it... ? So last minute... But anyway I agreed considering the advisor was yacking so long and since i still had class I agreed... I suppose it's all thanks to the president of music society... He actually sortta 'merajuk' to the advisor and the advisor suddenly changed is mind.... Now I'm thinking on what to say and teach later... I dunno how long I'd take but I just pray that the Lord will help me out here... I'm so used of praying before choir I'm afraid I may just suddenly pray... :p
We'll just have to wait and see till later......

Monday, March 01, 2004

Hmm...I had another car experience..... It was on Saturday this time with my church pastor... This is the whole story....
Me and my fren were waiting for our pastor to fecth us to church but he seemed late.. Actually very late considering church ahs already started,... We were quite worried for him for something might have happen but thank God nothing bad actually happened.. He came but the car was in a mess.. It was so horrible I couldn't even get into the car and sit down.. My other fren got in the car clearing it for me to be able to get in. Wen everything was cleared, the car suddenly sped off.... It didn't really but it was like on the beginning speed... At that moment, I quickly jumped into the car.... WAT LA!!! lol Anyway, that actually made my knee more painful from it's healing state but I thank God I'm safe from the 'runaway car'....lol.... :)
Nothing much besides that..... Just had my bio test and I'm thinking of trying out my college choir for the solo part if I have the courage and confidence that is.... :s