Back to the beginning

Hey faithful readers, sorry for the long pause... Been occupied with my own problems and depression and God knows wat.
Today, 1st day of uni. Not sure what to expect. New piano teacher, new students, new subjects, new sight, new year, new semester.... (you get the idea)
I woke up thinking things which I refuse to see. I've broken my relationship with God as most of u might have known. Maybe I should give him another chance. If I'm so willing to give ppl chances, why not God? After all I've been hurt emotionally and physically by humans, what can God do to me which could be worse? Trust? Why would I bother trusting anyone. Everything is just words. Faith? Someone said that I still have faith in things if i bothered talking about it. Feelings? Screw that. It's gonna be a tough battle between my mind and heart.
Speaking about chance, maybe I should give the guys chances. I mean what could be so bad? There are sweet guys out there it's just that I'm not too keen on them. You never know the wonders of nature unless you've driven with it.
And right now I gotta rush to uni to start practising. Cherious..... ;)