Music Degree

*sigh*
wat sud i say.... These pass few days i've been uni-hunting... My main place is the UK but now i've just realised that they only have 1 intake and it's Sept.I was thinking of going in January or sumthing.I wanna finish my clarinet and theory exam but now it's either i go this Sept or i go US in Jan.
hmmm....
But then again considerin Lyn wud be goind of MC this Sept oso, at least i won't feel lost and lonely if i leave the same time oso rite?? hehehhe ;p
Dunno wat to do.I've seen afew places.It's either Kingston or Trinity University.Dunno la.If i join Kingston,wen i graduate then i'd straight away get to work at Warner-Brothers.If Trinity it's the same school as where my mum studied.But now i don't really wanna go Trinity.I'm like in a total dilemma.I really dunno wat to do.All i wanna do is apply and i'd think about the rest later... I really can't think any further.I can't wait till next year Sept.I'd die.I'm already like in on the verge of death in terms on emotionally,family wise and loneliness.... So wat can i say.I just need my space and need to be in the world again.
Time would just tell for now.All I have to do is find my stupid cert frm College which i think i lost and think of how to write my personal statement.

Music Degree

*sigh*
wat sud i say.... These pass few days i've been uni-hunting... My main place is the UK but now i've just realised that they only have 1 intake and it's Sept.I was thinking of going in January or sumthing.I wanna finish my clarinet and theory exam but now it's either i go this Sept or i go US in Jan.
hmmm....
But then again considerin Lyn wud be goind of MC this Sept oso, at least i won't feel lost and lonely if i leave the same time oso rite?? hehehhe ;p
Dunno wat to do.I've seen afew places.It's either Kingston or Trinity University.Dunno la.If i join Kingston,wen i graduate then i'd straight away get to work at Warner-Brothers.If Trinity it's the same school as where my mum studied.But now i don't really wanna go Trinity.I'm like in a total dilemma.I really dunno wat to do.All i wanna do is apply and i'd think about the rest later... I really can't think any further.I can't wait till next year Sept.I'd die.I'm already like in on the verge of death in terms on emotionally,family wise and loneliness.... So wat can i say.I just need my space and need to be in the world again.
Time would just tell for now.All I have to do is find my stupid cert frm College which i think i lost and think of how to write my personal statement.

Late night

*sigh*
staying up at night just waiting for time to fly... I just wonder wat else cud happen...
I'm suppose to pick my parents up frm airport... I think they reaching around midnight.But can't be certain.The flight might be delayed so m just waiting for their call... I've actually been kinda tired these pass few days.I think my sickness is bck...Early stage of broncitis(bugger)... Wat the heck,... sum more i'm like allergic to eggs... :( and most of the food has them.. I'm so tired but have to pick up my parents.Dunno which car to use.Mum ask whether i cud drive the big car but i don't really dare.Hard to control big cars.Anyways,I think i better go.

Bck to reality....

No music lessons,
No performances....
Man, how lost i feel.
Music is juz everything to me.

My parents are ok with me doing music now considering the marks i got.But they are still trying to push me back to interior design which is totally B-O-R-I-N-G!!!(if u do it long term la)
This month is suppose to be my rest month but i can't seem to rest.I'm already working on my diploma piano pieces...I just can't lay off music... I even miss leading out choirs as which wat i did in church last week end... I'm just in another world wen it cums to music.

I seem to notice tat everytime i play my clarinet,i look like a beginner.. or rather i look so not pro... I look like i'm not moving to the music but which i am... I suppose i just have to move more... I look totally stiff and tats horrible frm a performers eye view... ;p But normally i have to calm down my nerves wen it cums to performing... Then i can really move sekuat-kuat hati ;p heheh I suppose tat is sumthing i have to master.... I've already mastered the movement of piano by doing my PC.Now i have to master my other 2 instruments.Violin maybe a problem but i have to master the clarinet. To bad i din get a distinction for my piano... Passing mark in 60 and distinction is 90.. can u beat tat.... So not fair but on the other hand not bad for learning in 5 months.... *sigh* I never actually ever had a distinction in my life but oh well.... I suppose tats wat it's suppose to be.
Ppl have ask me to decide my future.It has already been said.Before my music exam i did say if i pass both instrument then music IS ment for me if not then I'd be in interior by now... It just to show tat music IS my future if not then wat???? Rite???

After Exam

Went to kl on the 9th of June... The moment i sent foot on kl it's juz badluck till i reached JB on the 11th...

9th(thu)
went looking for Jason's apartment but cudn't find it till like 15-30 min later.Jason gave me wrong co-odinate so went opening wrong unit...:p i practicallt scared sum gal or rather she scared me... Then i took the wrong bus frm the apartment.Ended up in pyramid.Met tis wierd fella frm Bangladesh or sumthing and ended up walking 20min to college.... Went there cudn't find my lecturers so waited for fren.Night time i went to cut my hair.This fella seemed to be a fresh graduate considerin the way he cuts my hair.... His hands/fingers keep shaking and wen he cuts my hair it nvr seems to be balanced.It's either right side longer then left or the other way round which ended up my hair to be cut real short.Supposed to go out wif fren at 11pm but fren nvr called or showed up.After tat,went back to apartment finding out tat Jason's room door was jammed.At tat time was around pass midnight.At tat time i was already like darn tired.

10th
At midnight i called my fren to wish them happy birthday.... then later i Called another fren over to help me wif the door.We tried opening the door for at least 2 hours wen finally it opened.By then it's already 2 pluss in the morning...Cudn't get rid of fren till 3 pluss and cudn't sleep until 4 pluss...automatically juz woke up at 6 pluss in the morning for sum reason i don't know.Went to wait for bus at 8am but bus didn't show up till 9 pluss.... In college i only got to meet 2 of my lecturers but tat was all....Then suppose to meet fren but she cudn't find parking.Afternoon i was suppose to meet this guy(Vincent) tat was suppose to show me Sedaya Univercity but ended up he made last minute excuses. Met old classmate and sorta wanted to catch up wif her but my fren totally avoided Wendy who was all these while tat day wif me so make a lame excuse to leave.... Night we were suppose to have dinner wif Wei Chern,Wangzi,Kok Lim, Li Yien and Chor but ended up only Kok Lim turned up... The rest were either busy, sleeping, didn't wanna cum or not in kl at tat time.There was suppose to be a birthday celebration wif Wei Chern and Li Yien but it turned out horrible to me.I mean, tat's the whole reason y i came to kl in the 1st place.To spend time wif my frens.It ended up to be only 3 gals.Li,Wendy and me.we went to the bar a while and by midnight we left coz i was staying at a choir members house to leave for Johor the next day.But we cudn't find the place and kept giong wrong turning... We finally found the place but at tat time it was 3am pluss... Felt bad for Wendy.She seemed mad...Hope she's not mad at me coz i feel like it's totally my fault.We didn't exactly reach the door of the house.We were suppose to find the place Merpati. But ended up finding every other name of a bird of Malaysia instead.We cudn't find Merpati so we stoped at Merak and called.I soon found out tat it was less then a minute drive frm where we were waiting and it was about 15 minute or less to Sunway... *shish* Tat's like stupid can't to think of it...

11th
Cudn't sleep at 3 pluss.Only cud sleep by 4 sumthing and automatically woke up at 5 sumthing considerin we left at 6am.So darn tired la... Hardly had any sleep the whole journey though the 4 adults in the car thought i had my sleep in the car. We reached at 11am.I took a shower soon realising tat i have left my towel at Jason's apartment and i also realised tat i broke my framless specs. At the same time i realised tat i ALSO have broken my sandles.

So tat's the whole badluck....
But tat night turned out to be good luck... :) I got my piano results and i played my clarinet ok and sang almost every word which we were suppose to memorize.Esp the italian songs which was very hard for me to memorize.Got quite alot of attention and the ladies in the choir help me change quicky frm choir uniform to my black clothes in between.It was singing then my duet then singing again so i was like rushing like mad..... That night I was very scared at looking or knowing my results then my mum saw it and she seemed to look kinda happy... Soon realisin i actually did very good..Thank God for tat.... I actually shed a tear or 2 out of joy... I was all of a sudden just so awake frm tat moment onwards and i was extremely happy out of the roots of my hair... heheh.... I've gotten 81/100 which is considered very good considerin i was doin a Performance Cert.. I'm juz so over joyed.Until now i juz wanna celebrate wif my frens but i don't think it will seem tat way until quite sumtime... =) After everything tat night I've gotten to know a few guys frm the both choirs frm JB.Really cool but at the same time i was too tired to talk further.After the mini concert, we went supper with the JB choir.Then we only went back to our hotel at 1am.Was suppose to party wif sum of the members at sum karaoke place till 3am but was juz too tired and the ppl were going were only ppl frm Kuching...No fun la... so went back and slept....I was so sleepy tat i was so blurr in the morning...Wen my rommies phone started ringing, i thought it was the hotel phone so i was like.. "hello...hello.." soon realisin it was my frens hp.Even wen my alarm and wen my fren called my hp, i thought it was the hotel phone... It was really funny can't to think of it.... Seeing a blurr person hello-ing a different phone... heheh....
Well, tat's my whole trip there..... Am both happy and tired about the whole thing pluss kinda disappointed about my kl trip... *sigh*

Finale!!!

Yup.... i din spell it wrongly... My music exam is finally over... After a week of stress i finally can rest... ok not really despite the fact tat i'm performin tis weekend again... but ya it's like finally finale.... heheh
My violin exam was on the 3rd and piano today.... My violin was chaos but my piano was ok except my 1st piece... At 1st,I was worried and my mind kept thinking and wonderin but i force myself to forget everything and soon i started goin to my music world and played better..... heheh... Esme said i'd pass for sure.Hopefully she's right and mum said i did ok.... At least... I feel relief rite now... *ahhh* But my violin was total shit tats for sure.I knoe i did badly for my ear test.Hopefully i pass on the dot on tat exam...
Rite now m juz looking forward to goin to KL. Can't wait to get away frm this place and recharge myself... =)

Trial by Jury

It's been an absolute long time since i've written... I really have no time for all this at this moment but i juz gotta share my fun... =)
Last week end on the 28 and 29th of May was Kuching,sarawak's 1st operetta.Was a fun musical lead out by my mum.We practised the whole week... Everything was ok all but the orchestra, the Judge and the head Jury..... Kinda sad about tat.... I mean i'm in the orchestra and i seem to be the only 1 knowing where we are and wen to cum in and those music thingy considerin i'm still and only a student and there are like music teachers there.... Oh well,.... the Judge I realized, i met in Kl before at the KLSO(Kuala Lumpur symphony orchestra)... He sure is different frm the last time i met him which was like 2 years ago... Last time he was smaller,slimmer and sud i say more or the si-si kind?? ;p woops... hopefully he won't end up here reading this 1 day...
Well,tat whole week we were practising every nite... Kinda fun and at the same time stressfull... Was playing for 2 hours pluss non stop and singing as well... I think I'm the only blower playing the most part.... *shish* and i'm a gal sum more. Where got enough strength... ;s
The performance overall was ok.. I thought the 2nd nite was better.... So it always seem to be tat way. Maybe coz 1st nite at VIP and coz my boss was there... ;p Pluss i was like rushing frm 1 stage to the other and frm backstage to the side stage... Was practically catching my breath the whole time so didn't really play tat well and my reed cracked so kept squeeking.... 2nd nite was ok... my duet with my flutist fren was good.but my partner was worse then wat i played the nite before... The acting and everything was definately better and the ppl watching were actually really cheering... The Judge on the 1st night forgot his part and the head Jury came in on the wrong time... It was totally bogus but wat the heck... The whole show was a blast tat they have asked us to perform again next month for the CM(chief Minister)... There was also this lady frm KL askin my mum wen we were performin in MPO, which is sum grand place which is very hard to actually perform there let alone be in the orchestra there.Tat's like totally sumthing...
the funny thing behind all this was tat the Judge turned out to be young and sum1 i know. I was thinking it was sum 40-50 year old fella. And the gals in the choir were like ga-ga over him.. The choir members call these gals cheap gals and ppl are talking about them... It's actually along story and there are other stories behind it but i think i better end here...
I'm having my music exam tis week on the 3rd of June and next week on the 7th... Scared i'd do badly or get to scared i actually stumble.... =s Hopefully i get a merit for my violin and really good marks for my piano.My piano teacher and her daughter said I'm sure to do very well... Dunno bout tat coz mum doesn't really say the same thing... I mean give me a break.I'm doin a 1 year practise in 6months.Ppl actually finish their pieces on PC(performance cert.) in a year while i'm doin it in less then 6 month so give me a break... With all of the practise, my hand is actually in bad shape.Both right and left hand hurts like hell.Right being worst.Got my wrist jabbed yesterday and it's actually shaking now.I'm scared i won't be able to play music any more.tat's like my biggest fear right now.
Well tat's about it... gtg now coz have to wake up early to practise tmr... nighty nite now.....
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