Journey through music: October 2006

this is so not right!!!

Year end performance

All over. For uni that is.
Just had my last performance today. In fact it's an acting performance. And I did a small part acting as a cow, theif, maiden and prisoner... =) We danced, acted and I did a small solo. All in one. It was great. I love the feeling. I love the feeling of singing and acting. Being a whole new character. I was surprise to find myself singing confidently for the 1st time without hearing a sign of trembling. I love the way I sang out. The only sad part was that nobody came. *sigh* As what always happens in almost 90% percent of the time I perform. Only Rachel came but she came when we already started. Even though I had a huge feeling nobody will come, I still felt heavy at the heart. I wish and hope all the time that I'll just see a familiar face but that wouldn't happen would it? =) Felt like a tear would run down my cheeks but all is cool. I'm taking it ok. Experience is great. I love the class and I'm really going to miss it. I know most of the students in the class didn't really want anyone to come but they all had friends coming while telling everybody else not to invite anyone. Funny thing... lol....
I wish the play lasted longer then it did. I smile just thinking about it.I didn't know I could be quite good considering I've never done these kinda things. Usually just chicken out. ;p

Choir performance was last week. Performance was better then all our rehearsals. Everything went well. I didn't know I could sing soprano part without any pressure or much tension. I suppose I'm learning how to relax more. And those short singing lessons did help me out. I can feel myself turn red when performing in front of ppl but some how I perform with more confidence then I did before which is great.

Last event of the month? Piano exam on tuesday. And?
Hmmm.... The bad thing is left wrist is starting to hurt for some reason. Not to mention the cracking sounds it makes sometimes. Don't seem to find the mood to practise but I just have to force myself. I need to do good for this. Keeping fingers crossed for that.

Funny thing is I'm starting to compose. Something I've never thought I'd do. Been trying to restrain myself from writing music though coz it's disturbing my practise and all.... And the thing is I like the ideas and stuff I hear in my mind. The music is just there. Can't wait to find time and inspiration to write again... ;)

Where is cupid?

Love birds everywhere. What can I say... it's 1st year. All I do is smile and walk past. Will it last? I dare not say. Are they true? Who knows better but God.
Me? Hmmm.... That's tough. I see cute guys some days and some days hot guys but i think I have enough attention from all the wrong ppl. Explain? Nah.... Don't feel like it. But then again love the company of close friends and I smile to have them around or just to spend time with them. Where are the guys I'm interested in? Hmmm.... This time I'm not going to make the 1st move(sure.. I always say that. in the end I always do).
Performances coming up and I'm so looking forward to it.
Choir this fri evening.
Practical Stagecraft(drama) performance I'm not sure when but it's less then 2 weeks.
Piano exam - 2 more scary weeks.
Church orchestra is about 2 months time.
Church choir? Some how my mind seems to be bothering me so most likely I'll join them if I get asked again or I get a hold of somebody's contact.
Time to sleep. I'm still not fully recovered from being sick and it's been more then a week now. Fingers cross. Pray that I won't get sick during my most important weeks---->> exam....

I'm not sure

A whole week of up and down emotions.
Wrote my 1st ever successful music piece. Played it for 1 of my friends and surprisingly she liked it and said it sounded what I felt when was writing the piece. A sense of achievement. I've always wanted to compose before I was 21. But with the ideas and composing, I didn't actually practised my piano.

My back and wrist seems to hurt again and this time the pain is sharp compared to before which where the pain came quite frequent.

Waiting for a few ppl. Sometimes feel like contacting them yet I might as well juz let it be. Don't wanna be 'perasan' or or any sort putting myself in a very difficult situation. Have a whole history of difficult situations. Not sure on certain things so would just let time tell.

Cousins in the states. Everytime I see their latest pics or start chatting with them, the more I wanna meet them and hang out with them. It's been at least 14 years since I last saw them. And they are the hottest male cousins I have (= Too bad we're related ;p