Well, I'm half awake but here goes.... Yup.about last fri. I was waiting for Timothy to fetch me to cell gp.. while waiting i met my fren n was talking to her but then Tim called. Which means he's here already so I quickly went out and went to the nearest car... The next thing I knew, I was in the wrong car.It's so darn emmbarasing. I can't believe it happened to me. When I was in that car, the guy was lika..."err.. are you in Pr Kelvin's cell group?" I didn't know what to say. considering when I entered, I was wondering why Timothy was so tall and why the car so quiet. I thought that the girl and guy behind at the back seat were Wendee and another person..... I just can't forget that time. It's a laugh-er-ble moment for me... :)

Can only write for a while then continue writing the next day or the day after.... After all m not using my computer..... Ya, I did get to play the piano at the audi but for a while. The time after that i think I'll write it tomorro.. Now I'm at my frens place. We've been here for hours. She can read ur future, charactor, love life... Anything... I AM amazed and scared at the same time. After all I wouldn't want to know my future. It's too scary. It could be something not nice so I'll jsut stay on the safe side... Good nitez....

AAARRRGHHHHH!!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!!
I'm wet and angry... The audi is lock....... It's lock everytime I wanna use it..... Okok... I'll explain.
I wanna play the electric piano which is in the audi but the thing is the audi is lock. The music sociaty have said that the audi would be open for those who wanna use it..... It's either that or someone else is using the audi.....

Well, can u believe if 1 of ur frens lied not only to u but to her church members and the teacher? Well, I have this fren. A leopard never changes its skin over night wat..... Here's the story....
There's this gal, we'll call her N. Well, N had told her cg members that she got suprisingly marks for both mats and chem test which was a 94 and a 90 but in real life, she failed both papers terribly. Not only that today when the teacher had asked her for her chem mark, she lied saying that she got a 47 instead. NOw wat do u think about that... I just can't believe she still hasn change yet.. It's sickening being around N and talking to N. But what can I do about it. I'm not like her parents or anything....

Well, I suppose I better go try and ask the security guard to open the audi before I go for cell group(cg).
By the way, Happy Sabbath...:) (I nearly forgot)

Well, I've looked and studied about human thinking and I've come to a conclusion that humans are just plain dirt......
:) Okok.. Not really.... Well, humans did originate from dirt. That's what the bibles say.... and we'd soon be dirt arter we die....
But that's not what i had in mind.....
I've learnt that ppl can't be trusted.. they may seem all innocent and nice... Lots of ppl have tried to gain my trust but I just can't trust them just like that... They have to earn my trust. I've been hurt far too many times for me to easily trust a person. Many have said that they would try earn my trust but until today, not 1 of them have succeded.... :)
Yesterday was my bro's birthday.. At 1st I didn't wanna call to wish him happy birthday considering he never was nice to me but in the end I ended up waking up at 6:30am and calling him wishing him happy birthday but in the end it did paid off... Mum sms me telling me how nice I was to call my bro... That just made my day... .Getting a praise from ur own mother...:)
16th February 2004
Yup, the day before..... It was the most terrible day... Ok not tat terrible but it was terrible... Just the day before that day which was a sunday,... I broke my mirror... I tot I mite be gettin a bad luck that day but I suppose it was late coz the following day which was the 16th of February,...was just horrible... I got scoleded by my mum coz of this stupid ATM card thingy... And I had to call those stupid banks.... pluss...... errr..... sumthing else went wrong but I can't remember at the moment...
Anyway,...I guess I gtg now.... Need to get sum work done before class... After all, my mock exam is like in a months time....

Well, it's like the 2nd week in my new class... I've met and talked to a few. Am still trying to make frens but have a problem remembering names. I just hope they won't ask me their names till i know it....
Hmmm.... I don really know what to say... Well, tomorro is Valentines... I wonder how kl would be like. maybe I'll jsut stay in my room after church. I just don wanna feel horrible again. I dunno y though... I know I won't be getting anything but maybe i just HOPE that I wud... *Shish Dunnola.... I can be crazy at times... When I want something to happen to me, it doesn't but when I don't think about it at all, it pops out in front of my face.... Whateva la......
Normally ppl would be writtin lots of their sad part of life inside here... I just wonder why... It's normally 60% of their blog filled with 'mizzery'... I suppose maybe they just wanna let out their sad feeling or anger... :) lol.... but that's what i'd actually do too.... :)
Did I say that I kinda miss my old classmates? Well, if I did I'm saying it again. It's really different.. Everything.... Even my chemistry practical is a blur now... they are doing everything differently. I actually am not sure on what to do for it anymore.... :(
Gtg now.. Wanna watch movie in pyramid then......... buy some stuff then....... clean my room then....... do my maths...........................................

Well, I just finish my chem test.... It's all worth while studying for it I think.... It was ok compared to the time I had the same test last semester.... Just hope I get a good mark for it...
Nowadays I seem to have no mood studying at all... Esp last night. Couldn't study so went walking around college and ended up sitting down with Mus and his frens talkin nonsence or rather listening to their petatic speach. I was with them for around an hour pluss...
I've been pretty down too.... Yesterday was the 1st day of the blood donation thingy... I've been waiting all my life to be able to reach the age of donating my blood and the next thing i know, I'm not qualified to donate my blood. U c, I've been going on medication and the needle thingy(i think it's called 'acupuncial'....I dunno how to spell it....) ;P And now I really feel really down and horrble just because I can't donate my blood... Stupid right?! I dunnola... I just wanna do something big. Not something to show off but somthing like this which helps other ppls life... *sigh
But maybe there's a reason for everything.... Maybe God is showing me another path.... Whatever it is I'm trying not to feel so bad about it....
I'm starting to have this feeling that my same horrible feeling is coming back... I'm starting to think loneliness, sadness and depression... STUPID!!! REALLY STUPID>>>> I'm talking about myself Esp when Valentines just around the corner.... I don't feel sad that I'm alone or anything. I mean God's my Valentine and has always been.... I shall not feel lonely or anything else just because of something stupid like that.. I mean everyday to me is just the same whether onot it's someone's birthday, Valentines or my birthday.... Maybe coz I just don't fancy this kinda things.... Through experience I know how it feels and i seem to be always getting hurt, that's y i just hate all this things and am trying to avoid it... Even with ppl around whether onot new frens or anyone. I'm scared of being hurt... I've been painfully hurt more then anyne can imagine.... But well, it's part of life and it would soon be over wen Jesus comes..... There would be no more sadness or sorrows, no more negetive things in life.... I'm just looking forward to that day where I can meet all those whom I've lost through the years esp my dearest, loving, favourite, caring grandmother of mine... I really do miss her alot since she left... I felt uncared and things like that. I've never been cared more then how she's cared for me... And not forgetting being able to meet God face to face and see his wonderful angels all around......

Well,.... I'm back again in KL.... My frens say I'm a million-air.... ya rite.... If I was I wudn be within Malaysia in the 1st place. My frens back home aren't suprice anymore wen i came back.. I always seems to be coming back anyway. Well, lets just put it this way... I love them much and would never miss a time of seeing them and not forgetting going to church... I really do love that place even though all my close frens there are gone.. It brings back lots of memories and comfort and I feel so free there..... :)
As I was saying.....I'm back and not really feeling myself.. Have a very painful knee though I have to ignore it considering I'll have to walk all around college and will be going rock-climbing tomorro... I just wonder how tomorro would be like.... Hope it would be less painful and fun.....
I'm also planning to donate blood tomorro... I just hope I'm fit enough and free enough pluss courages enough to do so... We'll just have to wait and c to find out... :P

Well, yup I'm back home.... It's just good to be back home again...... I'm tired from only having 4 hours sleep. But I know I'd have enough sleep tonight.. I feel so welcomed.. esp by my doggies.. They were really happy seeing me back compared to everyone else..
I came home to a house full of ppl.... Every single relative in kuching were there for our 'chap goh mei'a chinese celebration thingy though I dunno what's it about. It was fun talking to my cuzz again esp Jus and Jo...
Will be here for 5 days.... Hope everything would be fine here...anyway... better get going now...good nitezz..

1stly I'd like to thank the Lord 4 all the things he has done for me. Since this year I've been here I'm not really that gloomy or sad or anything negative.... God has provided my needs generously.
I've move intake from March 2003 to July 2003. That means 1 semester. The sad thing is I'm moving with only a fren n an enemy. I was glad being far from tat enemy of mine but I have no idea why she seems to be in my way. I do tremendously miss my fellow frens but wat can I do, this is for my future not theirs. I dunno if they really miss me the way they have telling me... But only they know and God knows.... Lot's of my frens r retaking 2 subjects which is suicude(that's wat the lecturers keep telling us) Others everything. My new class is scary. They only new thing about it is the students and my new chem lecturer... But I'll soon get use to it... I've notice the teaching difference between our express course and the normal course... Now I can actually absorb more and better compared to my usual class. The students there are not as frenly as my old class. The class is huge too... Now I know why Afiq(my fren) had a tough time there.....
Tomorro I'm going home. In a way I'm glad and in some other way I'm not. U c, I'm sure to get the scolding from my parents. They would be fighting and I'd be force to hear from them. That's wat I hate about it... Since I'm goin home I had a transport problem goin to the airport tommorro. I tried asking my frens.... more then 5 of them but they all seem to be busy... so my other option was Pr Able... Thank God he's available tommorro for I wouldn know wat I'd do... U c, I'm shortage of money from paying my fees, my exam fees and my hostel fee..... so I really wudn be able to afford a taxi. At 1st I had a problem paying my exam fees but then thank God I brought my bank book. I can't use my ATM card so tat means I can't redraw money out. But with my bankbook I could but then they charged me just because I didn't open my account from that state. can u believe that. It's robbery Anyways, my wonderful frens were willing of borrowing me money but i decided not too since there are other ways besides borrowing money... So I absolutely thank God for helping me in every problems and for short term wonderful frens...... :)
That's for now.. i can't write anymore... Am late for an appointment...... So
until next time... True infinity... and beyyyoooonnnndddd....... :P