bizz

YUp.... I've been like pretty busy wif so many things i hardly have time to the toilet.. ;p joking oni la.... It's busy doing this and busy doing tat... If it's not being a driver, it's teaching, if now then it's rehearsals for next week, if not it's church stuff, if not it's practising for my music exam which is in 2 weeks times, if not it's doing my interior design homework... So tat's like practically my life now.... Wat kinda life cud this really be i just wonder....
Sat night the youth had a movie nite.. I actually did't wanna watch the movie they picked out 'Tentang Dia'(about her). BUt i haven been goin to the programmes which i plan out so had to show face sometime rite... Watching the movie really reminded me of ME.... It's like watching wat i've been through and those kinda stuff... All esp tat my life is far worse then tat =) Oh well, i suppose everyone's life is watever it is......
We will be practising every nite full swing.Started last nite... Practising for our musical drama 'Trial by Jury'. It's gonna be just fun fun fun.... i know it though a little chaotic.....
Now have to start practising... I'm still not ready for my music exam.... Am doing piano(performance cert.) and violin(grade 8). It's like a total killer... Thank goodness i din take my theory and clarinet exam at the same time... Am dying now... Pluss my wrist hurts pretty bad not forgetting tat it's both wrist now and my right fingers.... ='( Hopefully i'll do well for my music exam.... =)

Great!!!

Went and met my high school fren yesterday... Boy was tat fun... Haven seen her for like 3 years..... We watched movie then talked and drove around and wen window shopping... heheh.... It was definately great seeing her again... She was 1 of my good frens in school... Boy,it really has been along time...
It was pretty difficult finding her place but oh well.... =) But at the same time i did scratch my car.... ;p was too tired so didn't quite concerntrate... thank goodness non of my car parts came off... Was darn freeked out at tat time...
My wrist is hurting like hell now but my mouths better now though i'm still taking 1 meal per day... Totally sufferin...can't wait till my exams are over then at least i can rest for at least a week....
Well then..... am just waitin for days to go by.... Can't stand stayin home and can't stand the boredom,pain and not forgettin the 'loneliness' here ;)

Wedding!!!

Was yesterday... Not mind or izit anyone i know. I was asked by another church to play for the wedding and the dinner.... In a way I'm g;ad i was asked coz i heard that the mother's day programme in church was a total disaster even though i've already advised the person in charged.... Anyways back to the wedding....
I was playing the clarinet.The wedding started at 10am.I was kinda scared i wudn't be able to play considered my tooth...It's getting better and healing already.It was pretty painful and stuff playing and I cud only last less then 30 min straight playing but thank goodness i cud play... I wudn't wanna 'ffk' those ppl.No one knew me or anything.I was the only musician who's not frm the church but i sorta had fun.The groom was pretty nice and small.Not forgetting he looks young even though aged 28...:p He even looks younger then his younger bro.... Anyways,my fellow musicians say his younger bro is very goodlooking... didn't really care and cudn't really imagine until they pointed him out...At 1st i thought it was sum japanese guy frm japan...As you see,the bride and groom works in Japan but are both frm here. So anyways, he was pretty goodlooking but one glance and i knew he was also the proud, snobish,rude,not fun,'I'm cool' kinda fella which was pretty boring... so ya.Well then, even so there is nothing anyone can do.After all he has the same surname as me...;p heheheh
Well then,....that was the wedding....Was pretty short and simple... Ok la but I'd prefer a long and nice1... the groom played his flute at his wedding which was quite painful to hear considering I'm a musician...
That night was suppose to go to another church programme,suppose to have my interior exam and lead out the social night at church but due to the food.... *ahem* I mean dinner where i had to play yet again,I din go to all of the above.... Was kinda fun i must say though sad to say everyone was quite puzzled wondering who i was as if I just simply cum to a wedding dinner...heheh... Funny in a way.Was on the same table with 3 pastors..I didn't know they were pastors.If i did I mite faint...They were actually such fun pastors.Made me laugh the whole night... So the whole night was quite entertaining by them at our table...Even though they were speaking in chinese,I cud understand half wat they were saying,if not my musicians wud tranlate for me... ;p Nvr laughed that much since last year.... =D The food, I cudn't eat much 1stly coz my mouth still hurt and 2ndly coz I'm allergic to the food.They served prawn and crab and those stuff.... Laughed so much I felt like our food was drugged or sumthing.... =)
Well that was my night... Now I'm not gonna touch my clarinet for the week... Then again maybe not coz there's another musical thing which i have to practise.... *sigh*

Bck to the hospital!!

When back to see the cute dentist... ;p He was kinda shock seeing the state of me.He asked his senoir so in conclusion it's a sortta normal thing....
Reason y i went back coz My mouth actually got swollen quite big and had a fever.Not forgetting I hardly eat or sleep coz of the intense pain.I can't wait till it's all over.... Wasn't expecting it to be tat bad even though i knew it'll be bad.... Hopefully it'll b ok fast coz i have a wedding to play at this saturday and wedding dinner to attend to tat nite.... :)

in serious pain!!!

I'm suppose to be at violin lesson now but like wat the title says,I'm in serious pain.
How did my operation go?It was scary.I was scared outta my wits.My knees shoke,my hands were cold..... I think the whole thinkg took around 30min.The dentist was a Malay guy tat juz graduated last year.Frm the name the nurses gave me i taught it was a lady dentist but it turn out to be tat it was a he and he Kinda was or is a good looking fella... ;p Anyways,he was kinda nice besides the way he pulled out my tooth with those huge tools... The material were all layed in front of my eyes.Huge needles,blades,knife,scaple.... those kinda thing....I nearly fainted just looking at it....Nearly screamed wen he injected sum stuff to numb my gums....The way he did the whole thing looked very rough but i hardly felt anything besides those moments wen i felt sharp pain.He stopped straight away and injected more stuff into my mouth... With all tat,now i'm starting to feel the pain and it's tremendously painful...Not forgetting tat it's still bleeding... His assistant was nice also i must say but the fact tat he mention my mulut so banyak berair. *shish* The assistant cudn't pronounce my name.Kept calling me Loraina and the dentist kept forgetting my name.This other fren of theirs on the other hand kept correcting the fella saying tat my name was pronounced Lorraine. Kinda funny but i was more worried bout wat the dentist was goin to do next.
I can't brush my teeth for the next 24 hours,can't eat solid food for a few days, hav to take my medications for a few days,not suppose to talk or exersice,can't drink hot stuff and have to have lotsa rest.Man,tats like totally suffering but thank goodness its only for the week.Tat's like for now la.... I still have to worry about the up coming pain I'll be having.

Scared

Later will be having a minor operation at the General Hospital... M totally scared considerin i hav a phobia for needles... AARGGHHH!!! help!!! dunno wat wud happen later.... Can't to think of it i can start to feel the pain of the knife and needle on my gum... *cough* *cough*.... i think i better explain.... Well, my surgery i goin to be done in my mounth... Y?? They removing 1 of my tooth.But to do tat they'll hav to cut my gum a little... yup,1 of my wisdom tooth and it's the side tooth.This tooth has been giving me problems since it's actually abit 'cacat'. It's growing side ways hitting against my other tooth which gives me pain at times.The pain gets worse wen i'm eating tough meat or i'm blowing my clarinet.So now m gettin rid of my wisdom... heheh... ;p Next I'll hav to worry about having braces. Frens use to ask whether i used braces bef to hav such nicely shaped teeth... *ahem* *ahem*... now it seems i need it after all.... :( *sigh*
Just wait for my next news on my trip to the DENTIST!!!

Hell

I walk in the valley of darkness,
Seeing dead tree branches
and dead bodies everywhere...
The river is the only thing wif life
But life of monsters;
its water is red as blood.
Oh for i walk in the valley of darkness,
All alone..

There I'm scared and fearful,
Lost and discouraged;
Oh where is the light of life,
the light of joy,hope and peace;
For i seek death;
but it doesn't cum to me.
I seek happiness;
but it flees frm me.
In the valley of darkness all alone.

I run outta fear;
i scream outa fright;
i cry for i'm scared of being alone.
Seeing no potential;
seeing no future,
seeing there's nothing for me.
Feeling trapped but nothing can be done,
till i pass the test of judgement
which wud be quite soon.
In the valley of darkness,
i stand alone.

I want out,
I seek longiness,
I want all the fruit of the spirit...
esp love,joy and peace.
I'm a nobody here;
I'd nvr cum bck here to stay,
once i've gone:
tis wud nvr be called 'home'.

I'm no longer the daughter of the 'Almighty King'
I've left the shabby ungrateful home;
I seeked love and leadership,
but fail leadin my troops to safety.
For i no longer serve the King of kings
I no longer bow to the Lord of Lords.
For i stand alone in this evil world of betrayal,
hate,danger and sinfulness...
I battle the evil son of the King,
Word for word;
action with action.
Oh how cud tis be,
we be blood connected.
Oh how cud tis be me.
For tis is wat happens,
When u r at the valley of darkness.....

Explorasi

Tat's the title of last night's performance.... I'll start...
Frm practising like crazy every night tat week till midnight, i suppose sat wasn't wat i was expecting... Non of my frens turn up... I sudn't be dissappointed considerin tis always happens to me... I knoe no 1 wud turn up but i just hope to much tat i'd be wrong...it's like knowing tat my birthday wud be choas and sad but just hoping it'd be all different... Thank God last year's birthday was the best.... Wat m i saying there.... lol... Anyways back to Explorasi...
The VIPS also didn't turn up and the hall was half filled... Tat really discouraged me.I suppose tat's y i played so many mistakes tat nite.... If at least there were VIPs there or my frens present,I wud hav deffinately played better or so tat have been my record... But on the other hand i felt a little better considerin the whole show was quite entertaining... There were a group of police or army ppl tat turn up and if it weren't for them the whole show wud be dry... Even Siti Sara made everything lifely.... I squeeked and played wrong notes,fingers cudn't move as fast as usual,my reed seemed to get wet very fast, my blowing slowed... dunno la. But other then tat i suppose i sorta enjoyed myself abit or rather forced myself to....
The next musical thing is a wedding tis saturday which i'm playing for.I've been invited to play for them.So there.... heheh... :) Dunno how it wud b considerin i'm playin for another church.....