I'm bored, bored, bored,.... I just can't concentrate.... Am only thinking about after the exams... That is when I'll be enjoying myself in Redang,.. that's when my friend would be coming to Kuching to visit.. that's when I'll be home with my doggies and in my bedroom... that's when it's no more studying(for awhile)... that's when I can really play my music... hehehe.....
Anyway,....I forgot to mention yesterday about last Sabbath.... It was kinda a weird Sabbath..... I went to church late..(not my fault...)... it's like 3 weeks since I last played music so I was desperate to play the piano that morning... But considering I was late that morning, I wasn't hinking of even getting the chance of touching the piano... (the church has lots of pianist). But then mana I tahu the moment I went to church the pastor was rushed to me asking me to replace the pianist right away... You see, the person playing the piano wasn't really good at playing the piano.. They said she stumbles and the there was no other pianist around.... Happy as I was I just let my fingers do the job.. :)
Sabbath school was a drag... They put me into the youth class but they are using CQ and the thing is everytime I'm there, I don't learn anything... They say I can't move out because I've been put there and I'm like the oldest bird in that class besides the teachers and their partner(whether husband or wife).
I thought I was also playing for devine but then, Tanya rushed in saying she's playing,... I can't really stand her playing... Anyways,... what the heck, she wanted to play I let her play.... No big fuss... The sermon was quite interesting..It was about 'The 3 Trees'.The preacher was saying that he and his wife was like praying for the rain.After he had informed us about it, soon after a few minutes later, it started to rain and HEAVILY too... Hmmm...what else ha...!!! Oh ya,... for the closing song it was I Will Run To You. The whole church didn't know the song besides the speacker and me la... :) Tanya thought they were using the sound system thingy so didn't bother about playing the piano.. It was a good thing I brought my music fail with the song in it and the chords... I never thought of playing the song... Next thing I knew it I was at the piano trying to remember how the song sounds like... I'm not really used to playing the melody using just chords on the piano but rather just accompanying BUT at that time no 1 else knows the song so I had to try and play it... It wasn't bad but very messy my playing...lol.... If only they told me before hand then I can try prepare it in a better manner but oh well... what's done is done....
After the whole service, a few of the members came up to me saying that I saved them or that I've save Sabbath... (whatever they are trying to say) I seem to be saving Sabbath ever time I'm in church.... Hmmm..... (my hidung is not kembanging) It's great that I can help in anyway.... Whatever la....
AARRGGHH!!!! I just can't wait till my last paper. Then I can really relax... I cut my finger with my pen-knife last night so am having difficulty typing at this moment... Oh well.... :)
*sniff* Wish I could be home for Gawai... I love helping my dad at teh clinic even though it's really with only my aunty and another nurses(that's the time where my dad's nurses are given lift to celebrate Gawai). I love the smell of medicine(yup... ;p), I love going visiting(that's when I can go visit Gina and a few freinds of mine) but well... *sigh* I'm missing that this year...
Anyway for those celebrating Gawai... Happy Gawai....heheh....:) Remember to keep some left-overs till I come back ya.... ;p

It's finally raining.....

After 2 weeks of heat we finally have rain here in kl.... And it has been raining ever since... this is the 3rd day it has been raining... Thank God for the rain.Now I don't have to use the cooler any more.... :) But then again it has been raining really heavily.... I'm not complaning.... I'm just happy that it finally rained after so long... ;P
Exams, exams,.... I only have 1 more paper so far and it's like 9 days away... It's so far away... I just can't wait till it's all over.... I can't wait till the whole exams over, then I can finally go Redang with my March intake frens... :) I just wonder how the place would be like.... Will be there from the 16th of June till the sunday which is father's day... I'm hoping I can be back on father's day... My family still doesn't know when I'm coming back.. I'm thinking of booking my own ticket but there's a problem... I don't have credit card to book for airasia and I dunno where to get MAS ticket which accepts my discount card... My fren said that he'll help me but I dunno when that would be... I mean, if we're taking airasia back from Redang, I mind as well go straight from there.... But then again the ticket price might have gone up or might be sold out....(coi!coi!touch wood).. :P
Well, I suppose I'll have to go back to my books... I have to score for my last paper which is chemistry subjective paper.....
Adios.....

*rejoice in the Lord.....*

heheh..... :)
I'm not suppose to be using the computer until like after my exam but I just can't help it... After all, I just finished 2 of my major subjects.. Bio and Maths.... I'm happy about it as well... Just hope my happiness is alike my results... :) I'm sure I did better and I'm sure I'll do better... Am just wonderin now how good it would go....
This now I was studying in the library with my friends. But the problem was we weren't really studying but rather making lots of noise talking away IN the library.... Guess what,........ we got scolded twice by 2 different librarians.... Scary and really unbarrasing... But oh well... :)
I just needed to say that my exams are so far ok.. all accept my Bio practical.really scru that up... :( Anyway,I'm confident about my mathes stats paper and I'm not sure anout my pure mathes.. ut yup.. I'm happy.... :)
Only 3 more papers to go.... tomorro will be my chem practical and the day after chem objective and after that 10 days later would be my chem subjective... Haha... Then I can really celebrate now... Am quite confident with this times papers.... With supportive friends here I'm not worrying as much as I use too... I just hope my parents would be ok with everything here.... :)
too tell u the truth.... my finger's just moving... I think I'm writing crab or rather sotong here... Anyways, i just wanted to say that my papers are so far so good.... :)

Well, 2 days ago was my 1st paper...Was darn scared but I suppose I did ok.. I was sortta confident that I did well... Am just hoping now that it comes out what I'm hoping now.... I thank God for giuding me that's for sure cause I enarly did a stupid mistake in mathes and I could solve all the question but 1 particular 1... As for Bio1(objective), I could do all those pass year questions but all those new questions m still quite queery... :P
Next paper is on tue... Bio3(practical). Hope I pass through that in a snap... I just need to get at least 2A's and a B.. A very impossible thing for me but yet possible.... hehehe... You see, I'm hoping to get into veterinary sergoen which needs 2A's and a B min for this particular uni I found... The other uni I'm not sure how much they need... If I can't get into veterinary surgeon then I suppose I'll do veterinary nursing,... That is if my parents let me la... lol...
*sigh
Am just hoping now that whateva I see in my future does come true....
It's really humid here... Thank God dad bought the cooler for me already.. The coolest place in the whole hostel apartment seems to be my room... hehehehe..... :)
Lotsa things has happen throughout the week but then I don't seem to have the time to write esp when it's the exam period and am really busy..
So that means i won't be blogging till after my exams which would be like in 2 weeks time considering next week I'll be having papers like everyday 1 after another.... Pray 4 me ya u guys out there......
gtg now... Need to head back to my books... :P
*sigh

*sniff* *sniff*
I feel totally tremendously misserable.... I just can't help it.... 1st it was 2 days of sneezing,.. then it was 2 days of flu,... now it's been 2 days of block nose and my voice has changed...
AARRGGGHHHH!!! I just can't stand it... Esp when this morning I woke up, it was like i had a fever.. I have this feeling a fever would be coming up... But not at this time... Not at this week... Exam here has already started.. I don't wanna get sick... *wuahhhahaha* :( *sniff* Well, I have been taking my medicasion eevry day now.... It's like 6-7 pills a day.... How torturing can taht be....
The whether here is getting cooler now BUT it's still humid here...Can't wait for it to rain again... It hasn't been raining for a week here already...
Been stuck in college studying practically everyday from 9 to 12 midnight.... okok... There are a few breaks in between but ya... AM already kinda sick being in college.. can't wait for any fren to call go yam cha or wateva... though I'll have to see my schedule as well la... :P
Well, i better get going now.... I've got a whole week planned out with going out and exams and celebrating frens birthday and things like that.......


*sigh!!!

Well, another week in depression.. I think I've found the cause of it.. Or maybe my frens the 1 that helped me find it.... I suppose I'm so concern in making my parents proud of me and being the perfect daughter just makes me feel pressured... I always seem to think that I fail to be the daughter they want..... In a way, I suppose it really makes me worry... Dunnola...
Yesterday we had a special mother's day program in church.. It erally made me cry to think that I can't spend mother's day with my mum... All those good memories about me and mum all started coming back... I started thinking of all the times when I was really sick were my mum was always there... or the time when I nearly died as a child... It really touches my heart to think that some1 actually cares for me..... I suppose she's just trying to be the perfect mum... :) It was really hurtful yesterday.. I mean, everyone was talking loneliness and death of close frens pluss the sermon yesterday was on home... I really didn't feel like being in church that time.. IO just felt like being in my room and not see anyone at all.... Well, I was on duty yesterday in church in playing the piano for divine service... It was like my hands did't wanna work with me.. During potluck, this old man came up to me and was asking me what song I was playing before the service started... I was like.."huh???" :) He then told me that the song was like very nice and the way I played really gave him insperation.... (like go figure that out) Well, that actually gave me a shock to think that I can actually give ppl insperation through my musci playing... That wasn't the only time I was being told that actually.... hehe... I suppose that means my feild IS actually in music..... :)
That night... okla.... last night me and a few frens went out ... We have planned in going out together for a tremendously long time and finally we did.. But the problem is that I didn't feel like going out with them. Esp when I wasn't in a very good mood.. I suppose u can call it depression bomb. But I finally wen cause Li Yien said that if I'm not to coem then she won't go too.. It was like I was spoiling everybodies night so I decided to go.... I was sortta quiet and crazy(like that happens when it's pass midnight for me or I'm not in a good mood). Dunnola... In my state last night.. .I just didn't feel like fooling around. I was practically pretending the whole night that I was ok though I suppose Wendy told the guys that I was in depression..... Oh What the heck.. I mean what am I to do esp when I'm only human....
I called mum alst night to give her an early mother's Day greetings and mother's day present.. I just hope she liked the present I got for her.... My bro said that she has put it on her phone already... :) That made me feel a bit better to know that my mum is happy... I thank God for that... I was darn worried.... I just hope today my sibling wouldn't make it hard for my mum tonight.. I heard from my youngest bro this morning that my sis woke up 2 this morning to make jelly for my mum... :) I suppose she learns it all from me.. After all, every year I would ask her help in following me get stuff to make for mum for breakfast on mother's day...... :)
I suppose I'll just have to take things easy... I won'e wanna stress myself too much.. Esp when it's close to exam period.....

*sigh*....Whatever is what I'll say....

Yesterday was darn....errr..... ahem... Let me repeat myself... like what my fren would say... yesterday was so shameful... lol.... Well, we were going through our test paper pper2.. The thing is I didn't do as well as most or some of my classmates in class n m quite 'shameful' about.... But guess what... My bio teacher was explaining the paper and as usual she never brings the teachers copy but rather use the studetns paper.. The thing was, I was sitting in front some more... She took my paper flicking my marks to the whole class...... Now I just dunno where to put my face.. I didn't do all that badly but still it's not very good that's why I don't like telling ppl my marks.. .But the fact is that my bio teacher was practically showing the show class my marks was darn....*tooot*..... I suppose I'll just have to live with it...
Another 2 weeks then it'll be exam. I dunno if I'm ready... I've read my answers from my exam papers and boy, I wish I read the paper properly.. There were a couple of easy questions which I totally blow it.... Darn man.... :(
this weekend mothers day... Oh how I wish I wold be back.. Okok... I know that I could be back if I want to but the fact is that it's not my money and money doesn't grow on trees.... My parents would still have to support my other siblings in their education and I still haven completed my studies.... Normally I'd make breakfast for mum and would try to make the house as plesent and stress free for her.. I don't know how the house would be like but I just home 1 of my siblings would be doing the same as I have been doing every year... Just to make mum happy.... After all, she has been taking care of us and feeding us all our lifes... :)
I suppose I gtg now considering class is starting soon... Oh well, for those out there.... just a question.... What r u planning to do for mother's day?... Anything special... ? It better be considering how much our mothers have been suffering for us.... ;)

Another day, another life.... Man do I feel not myself....Yup... Here we go again..... And the thing is I have been back 2 weeks ago... Something in my life is just missing but I have no idea what... And it's not the fact that it's high time I get myself a boyfren.... Nopezzz..... It's not... It's somethings else which I have been trying to find out.... I mean I've been laughing and talking to my frens yet I don't berkobar-kobar to study.. Esp when my AS exam is just like in 2 weeks time... I just hope I'll do like soooooo much better..... I did do better in my mocks from the last but it was only a little improvement.. Man, stress... stress.... PLenty of stress for me... AARRGGHHHHH!!!!
Oh ya... :) I was just talking to my dad last week end and I know now that I may have the pottential in doing music... Well, it all goes when I told him I plan about doin music... About starting a music shop selling things and at the same time teaching music.. And teaching music as in a couple of instrumetns kinda thing... Then I told him that for sure my business would grow to be like Chambers Music School/Shop here in kl.. The next thing I knew it he said... "ya hor.. then u can ask mum to help u out.." I was at that moment darn happy.. Now might be able to do music after all with my dad agreeing with me.... YEAHH!!!!!!! ...lol....
Anyways,I just miss the company of close frens... Man, do I miss u guys back in Kuching.... miss hanging around in church and with my old class mates....
Well, well, time would soon pass.. I guess I better be going back to my studies if I wanna go very well in my exams cosidering me and my frens would be partying this saturday night... :P