*sniff*sniff*
I got my AS results just yesterday... It was horrible.. I cudn believe it. Not even my maths. But wat the heck. I was so darn scared and worried about telling my parents until I had a headache for 2 days... yesterday and today..... but finally I did it... I told them and it wasn so bad so maybe it's because I'm far from home.... I didn't fail or anything but I passed.
But I've made my mind up... I've decided to go to the next in take. I'm dropping from the March intake to the July intake... I might miss my frens so esp the guys but wat's best for my future is doing well in my exam so that's what I'm just gonna do......
I've been sortta depress but have been getting lots of support from Alice and Evelyn. They never did let me down. Thank God for them. Actually I dunno what to write now coz I'm rushing. M suppose to go out..(yup at tis hour) But it's to calm down my mind.....
Good nite and Happy Sabbath........

ARRGGGHHHH!!!!!! cough....cough....
Today I just feel super horrible and tremendously terrible. I woke up early this morning hoping I cud study coz the nite before I didn't do anything much but read my new book which I just bought.
I woke up feeling dizzy and I had a headache. I took my shower and everything. Read 1 page of bio and I just cudn't stand the pain so I went back to bed hoping that the pain wud go away when I woke up again. But nothing worked. My head was better once it was on my pillow but other then that nothing helped. I felt horrible. But I had to get up. After all I had classes.
I dragged myself to class feeling horrible not knowing where exactly I was walking to. I rang my dad and ate my medication again. But the miracle thing is I cud pay full attention though I cudn really put my head up. I cud pay attention though my eyes were half shut. It was just horrible. As time passed I was better. Am better actually but still feel abit drowsy. *sigh*...I just hope tomorrow I'll feel so much better.....

Just this now I learned something pretty interesting during bio. Our parents send us to bed early when we were young for a very good reason. Coz when we were young, we actually grow taller and wiser when we sleep early at night. Our hormones or something gets activated and works more in the dark(night) making us grow taller and wiser... Wat my bio teacher said was those kids that stay up late actually stay short and stupid.... Oh bother... Now I just wished my parents sent me to bed at 8 instead of 9pm... .then I'd be a lot smarter... :p
I'm not saying that I'm stupid now... I mean if I was stupid then I wudn b where I am now. I wudn be able to do a math problem or draw well or do any simple thing like cooking and ironing......though some of my frens don't believe I can do it. They just think I'm born wif a sliver spoon in my mouth.....
Well, I guess I gtg now... I am still feeling awfully terrible. I gotta finish up my homework and my new book tee..hee... :) then I gotta have lots of sleep....*sigh*

Holiday in Phillipines

cough....cough.....
Yup I'm still sick and worst then ever. I'm coughing until I feel dizzy.... I just wish it was all over..... :(.. *sigh*
We did visit my dad's medical school there and his classmates. My parents never do bring their name cards. I had to give their name cards which I bring around(I know they will need did sooner or late :))


1st day
was already coughing terribly until tears came out and until I vomited.... :( gross..?yup...i know already.Well, i went to philipines on chinese new year. Was practically on the plane the whole day. Didn't get to collect any 'angpow' money... *sigh*



2nd day
was boring. Nothing much..... It was also raining. Just visited boring places. this was the day which we visited the hospital(dad's school) Oh ya. We went to a guitar factory. Lowell(my younger bro) got a guitar. can u believe it? My dad actually encouraged him to play it and bought the guitar for him but he use to discourage me in playin the guitar. How sickening can that be, especiallt frm ur own parents!!


3rd day
was some sort interesting. We went snorkling(however u spell it). The 1's where u see the sea on the surface thingy... :p(I'm horrible at spellings) Well, tat was fun. And scary. I started imaginating things like drowning or being pulled down the sea. When I 1st looked down the water, I immediately grab tight unto the robe. I was so scared but soon later I got used to it. I was scared coz I nearly drawned before. It was really deep. Soon after being too long in the water I suppose u can say that I got seasick.


4th day
was sick since the day before. or rather the night before..... and still am. Stayed at the hotel half watching tv and half sleeping. Was also on the plane practically half the day and half the night. I went straight frm Cebu, phillipines to KL, Kuala Lumpur(Malaysia)

That's all I suppose. Can't remember anything interesting which happened there.....

Well, today I woke up wif no voice. Isn't tat terrible... It was a good thing for the laksa(it's a kinda food here). That is because after I ate that I could talk not very well but a little. My trought still hurts and I'm coughin.... :(
I was typing for my aunty today. It was more of a work then just willingly and guess wat, she only paid me RM2 for more than an hours work.... I was sortta dissapointed but wat the heck...
Hope it wudn last till I'm back in KL. my trought I mean. It's really painful u koe....
Well, I'm actually playin pokemon rite now... :P I tryin to finish it before I leave home.....
Good nite....

Well, it's a busy day today. I still haven studied or practice yet. Too busy going out and typing for dad. Dad keeps asking me to type every time I'm back. It's as if I'm the only person in the house who knows how to use the computer but that's not true.....
I'm feeling horrible today. It all started yesterday. Last night my trought was feeling funny and I woke up feeling funny. Now I think I have the sickness everyone has here. I'm catching everyone's desease :( oh boy!! Well, hope I'll feel better tomorro cause I really do feel terrible rite now.....
I had a hair cut this evening. If I didn't cut my hair soon enough I think I'll soon go bald. That's my problem actually. If I do keep long hair it will start coming off 1 by 1 or even dozens by dozens(I'm talking about my hair)
Well, good nitezzz.... I'll have to get enough sleep. I haven been getting enough of it......

I'm finally home... But it wasn't the welcome i had in mind from my parents.They were practically fighting the whole way home blaming each other and putting me into their argument. Not many ppl wud believe me if I told them about my parents and their arguments and fights. I was so sad that nite I actually cried silently. Sumtimes I wonder, if they fight so much, y don't they just divorce. It makes everyones life easier and it wouldn't bother me at all.... But well, I'll just have to put up wif it. I mean it's not like it's my marriage rite?
Well, before that I actually met a church fren at the airport after we landed... It was Elvie. I was sortta suprice coz both of us were on the same flight yet we didn't meet each other till we landed.... :) It's nice to see and talk to her actually coz I didn't get to talk to her anymore after that. It was difficult talking to each other coz both of us were kinda deaf. Sad ya....:) We did talked for awhile trying to figure out wat each of us were talking abut. It was kinda funny considering we weren't exactly answering each other's questions.... :P
I really do miss church.I really felt homely in church today though not many ppl didn't really communicated wif me there.....I did a special music that morning. It was scary and I was really shaking like mad. I mean I do like performing but I really get stage fright. I just hope nobady saw me shaking. I was shaking so hard that I was afraid I was goin to fall considering I was wearing a kinda high heal.
Well, I suppose I should stop well. I maybe boring you..... I jsut wanna say that I really thank God for the 1st and 2nd chance of being alive after being so close to death.Though I maybe discourage or sad or whatever. There's always a reason for everything and there's a reason for beng alive though our lives maybe though at times. We just have to live our lifes everyday to the fullest.

Well, I just finish both my test this now.... It's ok.... I sortta went blank. Esp for chem but bio was ok(I hope). Sumtimes it's difficult to judge how you did in a certain test but well what I get has a reason for it.
YES!!!! Just 1 more night here then I'll be back in Kuching. Earlier on I did say I wouldn't be able to write till I go back to kuching(my home town) rite....! ;p Well, I was wrong. I just can't wait to get home. I don't mind kl it's just the food here really sucks. Maybe it's because my cooking seldom turns out well or I don't know where to get good food.... Well,... what am i suppose to do. It's not like I could go out anywhere I wanted anytime I wanted. It's not like I have a car here or a boyfren to drive me around...:)
Ok!OK! Enough complainin.... anyway,.... sumtimes don't you just feel that ppl just keep ignorin you or they won't talk to you unless needed? It's irratating.There's this fren of mind in college 'A' always says that 'A' would do things with me like study or hw together but it turns out that there are others things far more important but than with another fren who seems closer or lets just say always there everyday hanging out together, 'A' works with tat person... Sounds complicated. Lets just say 'A' didn't help me out but studied wif another fren. And I wouldn't be suprice if 'A' is reading this rite now..... Well, it doesn't really bother me actually. I'm used to it. I don't get myself all mad or anything coz there's always God helping me rite??!!!
Well, I gtg now... my mathes class has already started....

Well, i did wrote this now in the morning..... I wrote for around 15 min and guess what?! The computer jamed up on me. Can you believe that. Of all things to happen to me. I've been trying and trying since the last time I wrote to log on or to check my mail but the all the computer I pick just have to either not function or jam up. Well, then.... forget that. What I wanted to write in today is.......
Err... ok.... I just got my results for my Lan subject(moral studies). Guess what. I got a credit. :) Some of my classmates(actually guys) failed surpricingly. I dunnola. I actually did say that if I failed it I won't ever contribute or help out the music society in college. This is so cause I've been helping them out alot and working hard on my moral studies project. The lecturer in charge are both the same lecturer. So in that that's what I did. I said what I said and I suppose I'll have to help out the music society... :(
Speaking about music... I really do miss music.I need to play the piano. Even though I don't play the piano everyday or well, i used to. Anyway, i forgot what i wanted to say there.... :s Well, I just miss playing music.I do waqnna do music for my future but as you know dad doesn't wan me to do it...... We'll just see my results 1st.
This thu I'll be having my monthly test. Both chemistry and biology. I'm darn scared. I duno. I did miss 2 classes for chem before our break last year. So I'm kinda blur and not sure what the whole thing is. For bio I'm ok cause I also got some help from my fren. Thank God for her. I just hope now that I would be able to answer all the questions and get all the points out.
Well, Last sababth(saturday) I didn't go to church. I feel so guilthy about it. For those of you who are wondering why i go church on sat instead of fri, well the bible did say that God created the heavens and the earth but rested on the 7th day so we should keep that day holy and REST. And saturday is truely the 7th day so there. Anyway back to the point. I didn't go to church.... ok.....It's not like I didn't want to , I forgot or I woke up late. I did wake up early. I woke up 2 hours before hand in fact. I got myself ready and things like that. See.... so anyway.... I waited for my transport and the same place and the same time my transport normally comes. In fact, I waited for 30 minutes and no1 came so I didn't go church. UYOu might be wondering why didn't I just use a cab or somethings. Well, my parents does lat me use the cab but not all by myself. So I didn't take a cab. Well, this shows that I should get and have a car here since I already have my licence... :)
I just can't wait to get home with all the nice good cooking and the nice bed and the cute locable doggies and the piano....... (I'm dreaming again)... Well, I suppose the next time I'll be writing here would be when I'm back home since there's the only place I can use a good and working computer.

Well, haven been sleeping much for the last 2 days. I've been attacked by female warriers.... :) Ok!Ok! I've been attacked by mosquitos. And now my bed is full of dead bodies. Sick rite? Oh ya.. and before I went to bed, I found a worn on my stuff doggie. It's so gross.... It makes me wish I'm in my own room at home now where it's clean and big and nice to be at.... :) I just hope tonight I can get enough sleep....
I'm actually rushing for time. I actually have class now but I'll write down a few more things.....
My freinds have been saying that I'm different. They wudn and cudn believe it when I came back joking around. I mean haven I been doing that all my life. Maybe that's because I'm much more open this year over here.. Well, I'm happy here for now. I've been recharged after 1 month of being home.. Am I'm glad about it....

Well, I was suppose to be writing ages ago but it was either I had no time, the computer wasn't free or the computer wasn't working. U c, I'm now back in college (or rather Kuala Lumpur)waiting 4 my classes 2 start. I was suppose to be writing about New Years and stuff. Anyway,......
New Years...It wasn't a New Year to me.I had a huge fight with my brother,Lowell. Hard to say what happened.I ended up feeling painful all over and until now my body still hurts.Well,it's over.I blasted everything out to my parents.I was practically crying.I said a lot of things which was kept inside of me my whole life.I was and still am surprice by the way I reacted.I didn't think I would do such a thing as to say out everything on my mind.Anyway,I suppose what's done is done.....
On the 2nd,I went for my driving test.It was pretty scary considering my driving isn't as good as it seems.I did meet my neighbor's fren. If I'm not mistaken, his name is Leonard. Well,we talked abit considering we had nothing else to do while waiting for our turns in driving. For the parking test, it was a piece of cake. For Leonard well, he hit or rather the car touched the pole.The examiner didn't see and he passed. Can you believe that. I suppose now he thinks he's a good driver. Or maybe I was hoping to be a better driver than he.... But thank God I passed. I suppose I was thinking negatively.... :) Well, that's me alright.
Today nothing much. Back in school. Am very scared for my results. I think I'd have to either repeat or go Lim Kok Wing(that's an art college). Now I know that music is me and I wanna do it but the problem is my dad doesn't approve. Even though it's my choice. The only option which he agrees is me doing architect. Though it's not what I think of myself doing my whole life. Drawing buildings and houses and things like that. Just drawing can bore me though I'm good at it. I need to be inspired in order to do very well....Anyways, I suppose I'll just have to wait and see.
I do have a new roommate. I was hoping for a junior but she's my senior. Well, she's nice. Now I just wonder how I can play my clarinet. Will it bother my new house mates considering they are always at home? Am I to play in 1 of the empty classrooms? Well, I suppose I'll just have to wait and see.... I dunno why but I always miss playing music when I'm here but when I'm home, I rarely touch music. Sortta.
Anyway, I gtg now.... Gotta get ready for class.....